I haven't wanted a cigarette so bad in a year! I won't smoke one but I really want one but I won't do it. I've come to far. Besides, who has $4.00 for a pack?
How do you go from the highest of highs on Tuesday morning (from the lowest low Monday night) back to the lowest of lows on Thursday morning and it keeps getting worse.
My son comes home today, I get his papers out of his bookbag and there it is... my instant heart attack. He has been suspended from the bus for one day. Okay, yes it's just the bus not school but for PETES sake he's FIVE hello?!?!?! My husband called the principal. Now we are the parents that if you get in trouble at school you get in trouble at home too. Why we were so mad is the suspension is for tomorrow... we got one days notice for an incident we knew nothing about! The incident happend on OCTOBER 12th!! TWO WEEKS AGO! Why didn't I know about this? The principal- says oh my mistake. I let that slip, sorry. So, he hit a kid on the bus, then laid down in the seat and refused to listen to the bus driver. First incident. Does that deserve a suspension or is it that she knows he has trouble in class with kissing the girls and listening and sitting still so she lumped it all together and decided he needed to be suspended? Then she had a meeting with Tucker regarding the incident... can they do that w/o the parents knowing?! Tim told her that she IS NOT under any circumstance to meet with our child over discplinary issues unless one of us is present.
Tucker did get in trouble, he got whipped, he got sent to his room, he had to write his name 20 times, no playtime for tonight except for in bath for 20 minutes. And tell me what a 5 year old learns from not riding the bus? It means he gets to spend morning time with mom and he doesn't have to go to that dreadful daycare that morning. GREAT! So I am getting punished because I have to use leave from work to do this.
I am so ticked. My husband asked if I wanted to talk to her and I said oh no! I am in full blown hard core PMS I'll have him expelled by the time I get done with her.
And the whole job thing is turning out NOT to be what they had exactly said in the office Tuesday morning. Things are already getting changed around but that's a story for another day when I can do it w/o crying.
My husband is a complete jerk. I ask him for space, I say I can't talk about it right now and he can't take that. He has to keep asking and talking about it until I freak out and blow up and I'm shaking so bad I can't see straight. He's a selfish bastard. It's always about what he wants, when he wants. Well I'm over it! Wed night I blew up and yelled and later that night he said I shouldn't have yelled! COMING FROM THE MAN WHO SPITS SKOAL EVERYWHERE BECAUSE HE YELLS SO LOUD! I asked him when is it my turn to vent,when do I quit being your friend so you can be mine for a minute? When do you get to listen to me yell so that I can feel better. He says your are absolutely right - then tonight he can't shut his piehole until he has me pissed off. I'm not expecting comments to this post... I just had to yell and scream at someone since he won't let me! I am so ready to wash my hands of it all. Just walk away - leave him and Tucker here to self destruct w/o me.
Screw it all. Man, where's a Marlboro light 100 and a shot of tequila when you want one?
No, instead of that I'll go pray and ask the Great comforter to comfort me (and no not southern comfort - I mean God). gee - I crack myself up!
He will give me that peace, through his stripes I am annoited and healed. Tomorrow is a new day and a new mood.