Getting to know me

2008-12-29T20:58:00.003-05:00

As you can see a good Christmas was had by all. Tucker was amazed that Santa brought him EXACTLY what he wanted. My husband suprised me by getting me something for Christmas - and it was even a thoughtful gift. I guess he really does love me! :-)

We had a good time - Mimi is so proud of her granbabies. Teagan looked adorable in her Ms. Clause dress that her cousin PJ bought her. Life is good here. God is good and He is so faithful.

I don't really have much to say - nothing much changes in my life - as we head into 2009 I am looking forward to getting back into the gym and getting my pre-baby body back, making new friends, growing closer to the friends I have, and serving God with all that I have with (prayerfully) my husband by my side serving as well. May God bless you all in 2009 - and remember family is the MOST important thing we have on this earth.

2008-12-16T20:58:00.003-05:00

Pssst. hey brother lets peek at our presents. Photo2... Why yes, I'm quite the gift!

I know, I'm a slacker. If you only knew all the stuff I have to do - you'd forgive me. Things like wash bottles, feed baby, run to basketball practice, go to Zumba, go to church, serve on the Womens Ministry team, attend before mentioned teams fellowships and such that we've planned, work 40 hours a week and oh, shop for Christmas, do hair, bake cookies and peanut butter pies. Oh yeah, and sell Close To My Heart scrapbook supplies hold family dinner for baby dedication, drive to Mansfield the day before Thanksgiving - a 2 hr drive that took 4 hrs - and sometime I need to wrap gifts and do Christmas cards.

Do you know that I haven't had a single photo of my sweet baby even developed yet? What kind of mother am I?

My car battery decided to die on my while sitting at Sonic - had to push it out of the stall into the middle of the parking lot to have it jumped (thank you Tim S.) thank goodness people w/ sense don't visit Sonic when it's 28 degrees outside!

Got a new battery (there went Christmas money) and all is well now - God blessed me and Tiffany w/ an opportunity to laugh till we cried - I mean what else can you do in a situation like that?

So - huh- that makes me exhausted all over again thinking about it all. And - I'll take any advice on getting Chubba Bubba to sleep through the night - yes I'm doing cereal - no help! I did quit nursing her at night - I said that's it - no more- but she still wakes up wants the pacifier and then goes back to sleep. Letting her cry only wakes her more - she gets very very mad and louder and louder with every passing minute. So, got any advice out there ladies or gents?

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

Martha Stewart's - Cookie of the Day

2008-12-09T11:30:00.001-05:00

2008-10-27T18:56:00.002-05:00

Teagan and her doll Molly and laughing and talking. It's amazing how quickly she turned from newborn to baby. Rolling over, cooing, laughing at her brother. She is simply amazing! Tucker is amazing with her. She adores her big brother and he adores her. I am so blessed to have a son and a daughter!

Life is good, I'm glad to be back to work and keeping very busy. Tucker's football season is finally over, that tool almost every night of the week from us. SHEW! He did so fantastic I am so proud of him.

Fall is here in full swing, I have a feeling winter is going to come early. I have enjoyed the fall and the beautiful leaves. I unfortunately didn't get to do any hiking this year but I will next year. Teagan will be at a dead run by then... crazy thought isn't it?

God is doing great things with our Women's Ministry at church. He's been leading our team in a great direction. We are all of one mind and one accord just like His word says. I'm so excited to see what the outcome of these things will be. I am so blessed!

The elections are just days away - I won't post my opinions here but I'll be glad when they are over and we can all move on with life. What in the world will the news report about after the elections. The casino ballet (Prop 6) is a huge issue in Ohio right now. I'm anxious to see how that turns out. Again - I'll keep my opinions to myself.

I just got news today that my sister Paige - who was going to be moving this direction from 2 hours away is now going to be moving to Joplin Missourri (I don't even know how to spell it) LOL! I am devastated. I was looking forward to having my sister and her kids close to me for the 1st time in 22 years. I am so sad. I really long to have ALL my family close by to all be together for birthdays and holidays. I guess God has other plans and I have to praise Him for things unkown.

Like I said, Teagan is doing great, already 12 lbs and 23" long. She's very healthy and happy and most nights she sleeps from 8:30 to 4:30 and then to 7:30. I certainly can't complain about that! Tucker is excited about halloween - he's going to be a vampire. It's the first year I haven't had some influence over his costume and he's determined to be something "scary". He'll be the cutest scary vampire ever. Teagan is going to be an Indian baby (thanks to Lola for letting us borrow the costume) and no, I won't be collecting candy for her... that's so tacky!

So - happy fall and Happy Halloween!

2008-09-26T09:19:00.002-05:00

THE CUTEST JAMMIES EVER
Okay I saw on Lola's blog that she had the cuttest jammies ever II and so Ms. Teagan had to borrow the idea too. These are SO the cutest jammies ever. Not because sweet Lola gave them to her either - but because they are tight and show her diaper butt and her big milk belly with adorable watermelons all over them... makes me want to just eat her up!!!
Thanks Lola for the cutest jammies ever!!

2008-09-19T09:40:00.003-05:00

Ah sweet dreams!
It must be love!! Her favorite person - bubby!
Throwing gang signs already!
OOHH!! I get it!
My pretty blue dress - the only thing I own not pink. LOL!
Things are going well. She started on rice cereal in her night time bottle and then mom pumps and we are getting 5 hours of sleep!! YES! She's growing like a weed - it totally amazes me that I've already had to pack up clothes that are to small.
There is a photographer on her way to the house now, I can't wait to see how these photos turn out - she's got a GORGEOUS dress from Babygap that some friends of Tim bought for her. TOO CUTE! Thanks Bobbi & Brad!
I start to work in one more week, I'm nervous! Isn't that silly? I'm afraid of how the morning routine will go, I'm afraid of how she'll do at daycare, I'm afraid of how I'll do at work getting used to Vista and getting caught back up. I'm not excited at all the more I think about it the more I get ill!
Tucker is doing amazing in football - he is hysterical! He'll tackle the ball carrier and give a big ole YES with the arm - I expect if he ever does make a touchdown he'll invent the Tucker shuffle! The kid is oozing with personality anymore. He's doing GREAT in school - I can't believe how much he's grown up over this summer. He's like a new child. He adores his sister and is a huge help to mom - not a jealous bone in his body! GOD LOVE HIM!
Well, I gotta book I'm trying to read (The Collectors by David Baldacci) and it's great and I'm almost to the end - so gotta go!

2008-09-09T14:54:00.003-05:00

It It doesn't sleep during the day.... AARRRGGHH!!! But she sleeps 4 hrs and 3 hrs through the night so I guess I should count my blessings for that.

We are doing well - here are pics of Emilee, Tiffany and Denise from work holding her and pics of her at 4 weeks old in her ballerina jammies.

She is just adorable and spoiled rotten already. I'm dreading my return to work in 3 weeks - I can't believe how fast the time has flown by!

After another stint in the hospital for UTI and Kidney infections (me) Teagan and I are back together and healing. She eats like it's her last meal. A TOTAL HOG!

I don't know what the daycare is going to do with her during the day - she wants held constantly - I feel for poor Ms. Brenda!!!

Well - that's all the time I have for now... hello to all and I hope everyone is doing well.

Lola - I can't wait to play with you!!!

2008-08-20T13:05:00.002-05:00

A STAR IS BORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please allow me to introduce you to

Ms. Teagan Starr

8-12-08

8lbs 6 oz

20 3/4"

at 4:46pm

What a gem she is - a perfect baby - healthy, happy and she sleeps!

Mom and baby are doing well.

2008-08-07T23:59:00.002-05:00

I'm still pregnant... still waiting... if I haven't had this child by Monday night they will induce me on Tues.
Thank heavens I have a date in sight - only five more days! I'm not sure if I'm more excited to hold my baby or have my body back all to myself....
Wish me luck!

2008-07-31T20:51:00.002-05:00

Tucker got his uniform tonight.... this is his practice uniform and this his him doing his Heisman Trophey stance! LOL!! He thinks he is so cool in this gear!

These kids are so little it was hysterical to see them in their pads and uniform shirts. He's a great little player so far and is fast as lightening. Mommy and Daddy are beaming with pride how good he actually is... we had no idea!

Go 'Canes go!!

2008-07-29T16:12:00.003-05:00

And you thought someones belly couldn't get that big?!?!? LOL! I look like I'm about to rip open at the seams. And that is Tucker trying to look like mommy... I promise I really do feed him!

My stitch comes out tomorrow at 12:10. So anytime after tomorrow Ms. Teagan Starr will be joining us. I'm really hoping the sooner the better - I'm tired of being pregnant. Tucker has started football and practice is EVERY night of the week from 6-8. From now until Labor Day - can you believe that - like we have no life?!?! Anyways... I have a neighbor that will take him for me when I first have baby so I have backup thank goodness. His first game is Aug 16th and I really really want to be there for his 1st game! So Teagan - do you hear mommy - you need to come this weekend. YEAH RIGHT! LOL!

Her room is all done and my dear sweet hubby worked his butt off around last week. He built shelves in the garage with doors for storage and he paid to have the carpets shampooed, he put together all of the baby furniture. He worked very very hard! THANK YOU BABY!

So, we're ready and waiting... I'll keep you posted!

2008-07-04T14:42:00.002-05:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR KRIS...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TOO MY DEAR SWEET FRIEND!!!
My wish for you is all the love, sweetness, tenderness and kindness that you show others come back to you 10 fold!

2008-06-30T07:50:00.005-05:00

I AM SO BLESSED! WOW! God has surrounded me by the most amazing people. I've had my two baby showers - one that my friends and family threw and one that the ladies from church threw. What a glorious time I had at both and the most amazing girlie gifts!! One of my dearest oldest family friends that attended the 1st shower saw my mom this weekend and said - The love that was in that room was overwhelming - she said when my daughter and I left we both said wow, Holli is surrounded and protected by so much love. (Thank you Ellen). Yes, I have to agree - at both showers - I was surrounded by so very much love! The first shower was at Don Pablos resturaunt - a great place for a shower! Thanks Kris for being there and supporting me!

The church shower was at one of the church members homes on her back porch- they did sucha beautiful job! We played a game that I had never played before - you got a piece of playdough - then you drew a slip of paper w/ some baby related on it. I got rattle- so I had to make a rattle and then everyone walked around and showed their item and whoever guessed the most right wins. IT was soooo funny!!! Let me say - some of the women were so very creative!! Thanks Barbie and Anita - I had a blast!!

I'm going to post some photos - the dress I am wearing was made my dearest BFF Tiffany Star. She did such a GREAT job and I totally felt like a Hollywood Diva since Jessica Alba wore one just like it on Ellen! LOL! Tiff - I love ya and can't thank you enough for the beautiful dress!

I don't want to take apart the diaper cake that Anita and Barb put together because it's TOO cute! The pic of my hubby - oh so funny! He's sporting the Daddy's Diaper Dootie Tool Kit

It consists of goggles, face mask, rubber gloves, pacifiers that say Daddys Little Girl, a pair of tongs (yes tongs) bags to bag up the diapers and of course diapers, butt paste etc. WHAT A GREAT IDEA!!! We all got a HUGE kick out of that!!

I can't thank everyone enough for all the FANTASTIC and ADORABLE gifts I received for Ms. Teagan Starr the future diva. I also can't thank everyone enough for all the love and support I felt and have received!!

2008-06-19T14:11:00.002-05:00

I am SOOOOOOOOOOO bored!! So, it's been 1 week today since I've been put on bedrest. The days have actually gone by pretty fast - until today. The sun is shinging and it's really cool out and I keep thinking oh today would be a lovely day for a jog... uh, can't.. ok a walk... uh..can't... great day to move furniture and work on the nursery..uh can't! Lay by the pool? Uh can't too cold!! Freaking weather! LOL!
I've watched enough Baby Story to know that I've frightened myself out of giving birth so this child will be staying in forever. And enough Bringing Home baby to know that I'm giving this child away! LOL! They have those shows on so we'll quit having babies don't they?
My baby shower is Saturday and I'm like WAY SO excited! My BFF Tiffany made (yes as in home sewn) me a DROP DEAD gorgeous dress - totally Hollywood - Jessica Alba and Halle Barry wore one just like it - for my shower. I'm going to be so sexy, mama diva-licous at my party! YEAH! That is one thing I can say about this pregnancy - I haven't felt dowdy and fat - I've felt cute and pregnant and healthy. So different than my 1st one. My shower is at a Mexican rest. which I think is a FABU idea! I mean- no one had to clean their house, no one has to clean up afterwards - no one has to prepare food - its brilliant! I can't wait to be surrounded by the people I love most in this life and by people who love me and support me - to feel so blessed. What an amazing feeling its going to be to be gathered with my favorite people.
I can't thank the girls (Denise, Tiffany and Emilee) enough for all the effort and thought to every detail they've put into it! I don't know what all is planned but I know it's going to be wonderful w/ those 3 creative minds! How lucky am I?!?!
So - that's my life - I get up take TK to daycamp, come home eat breakfast, watch TV, check my email, take a nap, eat lunch, watch TV, check my email and go pick up TK. Eat dinner watch TV and go to bed.
So, you're all caught up! LOL
I did go to the Dr yesterday and everything looks great. The contactions have all but stopped - not even every hour. I feel great, the weight gain is good, I measure out right where I'm supposed to be - so God is good and answers prayers as I already knew He would!

2008-06-12T20:21:00.002-05:00

Hello all - I am requesting prayer from all my blogging friends please.
I spent some time in the hospital last night w/ contractions. Yep, you heard me right. They gave me a shot to stop them, it slowed them, they gave me another shot, it slowed them a little more they sent me home. 30 min later while eating dinner they kicked back in full swing.
So... I went to the Dr today (as I was told to do) and I am now officially on bedrest. They want me to make it another 5 weeks. I WANT to make it another 5 weeks!
But of course, going on short term disability means less pay, bed rest means less freedom. My husband may find this hard to believe however, I do enjoy helping keep our house clean, I do enjoy getting up and doing things. It's going to be very hard for me to stay down. It's going to be very hard on HIM to keep up with everything and work 2nd shift and have me around the house all the time doing nothing. So pray for our peace, pray for our finances and most of all pray for this precious little girl to hold on 5 more weeks!
I am so blessed though! I have had two wonderful friends from church already offer to do my grocery shopping (yep, I'm not allowed to do that either) and clean my house! What amazing people God has put into my life! I trust the Lord to provide for us in everyway. I know He has a plan and that it is the perfect plan - so I'm going to stay upbeat and postive and praise Him and stay out of His way as He carries His plan into action! PRAISE YOU JESUS!
I am feeling better today by the way - have had a few contractions but that's it - they said if they are less than 5 or 6 an hour they aren't going to worry but if I have more than that I need to call in. So - I guess I'll be blogging more since I'll be home to do it!
Thanks for your prayers!

2008-06-04T17:29:00.002-05:00

Hi!
I don't really have anything to say except 7 weeks and counting till the stitch comes out.
I feel fantastic - I am just not starting that uncomfortable phase. You know, the one where walking is an effort to get one foot in front of the other. I walk down the hall and people are laughing at me - no I'm not being paranoid - they tell me that they are laughing at my waddle!
HOW RUDE! I'm a good sport - I can handle it.
My ankles are now cankles (calf ankles) huge huge huge! But again - it's only a few more weeks.
I'm still sleeping good - I get up every 2 hrs to pee but that's good training! LOL!
Still haven't started on the baby room yet - (yes anal Holli is in a panic). I know we'll get it done - it's just a few more weeks and I'll motivate Tim somehow - hmm...maybe I'll fake labor pains and that'll scare him into it! hehehehe!
My baby shower is June 21st and I am SOOOOOOO excited. They are having it at a mexican rest. which is perfect since mexican is my favorite food!
Well - I hope you are all happy and blessed - I pray for you everyday!!!

2008-05-19T16:25:00.002-05:00

So, I am a total slacker!

Sorry - here's belly pics - 27 and counting - the countdown has begun! Actually this week I am 28 weeks now and only have 9 more to go!

I still feel incredible! We went to the Dragon's game this weekend and I finally felt pregnant - we parked a couple of blocks away and I was EXHAUSTED by the time we got to the front gate. I'm going hiking in the mountains of West Vir. this weekend. That oughta be interesting! Bet I do alot of nature looking not walking. I'm pretty excited about it. We're taking a trip on a old steam engine train. You can go to www.cassrailroads.com and check out the trip to Bald Mountain. My sister Paige and her family, me and my family and my dad are all going. Dad is going to tell the grandkids lots of stories of when he was aboy growing up in the mountains down there. I'm going to get it on video so we'll have it forever!

Life is super, like I said I feel great and for 7 months prego I'm not terribly big - guess it's true what they say about how you carry a girl and how you carry boys.

Hope this finds everyone out there in blogger land happy and healthy!

2008-05-07T16:02:00.002-05:00

I love music. I heard Tracy Chapman Fast Car on the radio the other day and that made me nostaligic. So... I got down under the entertainment center and dug through CDs. Let me say getting down anywhere is no easy feat for me these days! haha!
I dug out Tracy Chapman, Edie Brickell, Jewel... some old Blues Travelers. Oh the days when music was good and the songs meant something - or at least I could understand what they were saying!
So, I've had the panoramic roof open, windows down, radio blasting and singing at the top of my lungs! I LOVE this time of year!

2008-04-06T08:29:00.002-05:00

So, in answer to Pat... we had Chloe Grace picked (which I still love but Dad not so much) so now we're talking about Teegan Star. Teegan means poetic beauty and Star of course - star. Tucker and Teegan... very cute.
Tucker isn't real happy about it - he wants her named Chloe. We shall see. It could change 100 times before August. LOL!
The excitement around here is off the hook - we have furniture picked out we just have to order it, the bedding set is picked out (just gotta order it). You can see it at Walmart it's called Bubble Fun it's pink and brown and olive green. I didn't want to do any themes because they grow out of themes so quickly!
Teegan... huh... I think it's growing on me - although when I'm yelling at her - she will always be Tucker..ERRR TEEGAN... that's a good name too I think! HAHAHAHA!

2008-04-02T19:50:00.002-05:00

IT'S A GIRL IT'S A GIRL I'M ACTUALLY HAVING A GIRL!!! OMG - I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
I laid on the table today and watched her measure the baby and I kept saying - okay God, it's a boy, my heart is prepared and when she said a girl I about fell out!!
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!! She is a BIG healthy baby girl - the lady doing the ultrasound said (and I quote) " Oh my, she has a big ole' belly already". And boy did she - you could already tell she's a chubby one - so I promised to lay off of the Easter candy -ooops!
Thanks for your prayers!!

2008-03-29T08:45:00.003-05:00

TK and his easter basket which he found hiding in the bathtub.

Good morning world!
AAahh, the sun is shining, I have coffee in my hand (decaf of course) and I made eggs, bacon, has browns, and biscuits for breakfast, my kid let me sleep in and wake on my own... ALL IS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD TODAY!!!!!!!!!!
Wow, what a glorious morning! Spring is on it's way and you can smell it and feel it in the air. The trees have buds on them, you can see the starts of flowers poking their heads up through the ground - it's so wonderful!
I feel terrific! Being pregnant has been so wonderful - I just don't have any complaints! Now, how many people can say that?! I am so blessed.
Today is my hubby's day off and we're going to walk around the flee market for awhile. We'll have to make frequent sitting stops for me - my stomach muscles start hurting if I walk to long - that always makes me smile though (I know weird) because it reminds me that MINE & TIMS baby is growing in there.
The ultrasound is Wed. Mon and Tues will be the longest days of my life! I know I won't be able to sleep Tues. night! We've got our options narrowed down for the nursery - we just gotta know what it is so we can get busy on it.
Well - that's all that's in my life. Tucker has been on spring break all week - he's been an angel and I have loved spending the extra time with him and I know daddy loved staying home w/ him all day. He's really grown up this year - and getting taller every day (and skinnier) it's amazing! He's going to be the best big brother ever!

2008-03-17T18:47:00.004-05:00

18 weeks and counting!! So, here's what a dork I am... people ask me "How far along are you" and I've been answering 4 1/2 months. Well- today it dawned on me 5 months ENDS at 20 weeks not STARTS at 20 weeks! The good news is - I skipped a whole month - I am 5 1/2 months pregnant... HAHAHA! Time is flying by. Now I'm sure it's going to slow down to a crawl right about June!

I didn't feel like I had grown that much since my last photo - but then I looked at them! GEESH!

Come on April 2nd - I wanna know what this baby is - if i get asked one more time I'm going to scream!!

I feel great - the pregnancy has been truly wonderful and I don't have any complaints.

God has so blessed my life. Thank you Jesus!

2008-02-25T17:56:00.003-05:00

This ultrasound was done about 3 weeks ago - it sure looks like a girls face! HAHA!

I don't know what babysmith looks like but I know this is a great profile shot! Baby is right on target and looks healthy! That's great news!

And I am now 16 weeks pregnant. I feel great except for these awful sinus' and terrible sinus headaches. Which I can't do anything about!

I have to remember this baby is SO worth it!

I had my surgery on the 20th and it went well. The Dr said he'd take the stitch out around 37 weeks so that equals the last week of July! I can't wait to get this baby here! My moms birthday is Aug 1st so I'd like to shoot for that day if at possible ( you do hear me right babysmith?)

Here's a pic of the belly at 14 weeks - not much diff then at 10 from the pics but I sure look bigger in person!

Daddy is getting SO excited! I think even he is starting to hope for a little daddy's girl. He got to hear the heartbeat for the first time and you shoulda seen his eyes light up! Man - it was such an incredible moment. I think that's when it all came together for him.

The Lord has so blessed my life.

Church is going fabulously and I have been reading the Word daily and even though some of it is so boring I at least start my day with an amazing connection to God. He will never abandon me - I may turn my back on Him but NEVER the other way around. Thank you God for your faithfulness.

We've had a relationship revival this month and Tim and Linda Buttery are AMAZING! I have learned so much about myself through this! I totally suggest you check them out - no matter how great your marriage is!

2008-01-19T18:15:00.000-05:00

Me at 10 weeks prego looking more like 5 months prego!! GEESH!
Tucker swears he hears two babies talking back to him when he talks to my belly - there better only be one!! HAHAHAHAHA!
I'm feeling great. I had my 1st Dr appt and it went really well. My 1st ultrasound is Feb 4th and my surgery to stitch my cervix closed will be the week of Feb 18th.
Please keep my in your prayers. All really is going well - I feel healthy, I feel pregnant - but healthy! :-)
God is so great and I am so excited. If I think on it too long I start getting really scared! Like - Oh what was I thinking? What am I going to do w/ a baby in my life? I'm sure I thought all this when I had TK too. God will work it out!
Love you all and I still pray for you daily!

2008-01-07T20:05:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year!!
I was glad to see that I am not the only person that hasn't posted in a lifetime. The holidays were very stressful!
We had two yep two cars breakdown - Tim's and the backup. $2000 later and a very small Christmas later we got one sold for $300 rather than fix it and the other has a new engine.
Christmas was great and we enjoyed each other - we ate well. I fixed lots of new recipes and so now we are all fat and sassy! LOL!
Christmas eve I shared the news w/ my hubby that we are going to have a new addition to our family in August! I prayed that God would go ahead of me and prepare his heart and mind and of course God is good and He did. We are an excited house hold and had an exciting Christmas getting to share the news w/ our families. Everyone (I mean everyone) but Tim wants a girl. We shall see. I'm about 9 weeks now and conceived on Thanksgiving night - there is one to remember. I keep telling you kid-less sex is the best! haha!
Tucker is doing fabulous! I am so in love w/ my kid! He's so awesome!
Holidays were great - spent time with family and friends (new and old) and am I so blessed. I pray that 2008 will continue to see spiritual growth and bring even more new friends into our lives and that it will be the year my husband receives salvation! I am doing a 30 day prayer challenge for my husband right now - its really awesome - there are several of us doing at the same time - very powerful and we all expect big things from God! He never fails us!
God bless you and yours!

2007-11-27T18:52:00.000-05:00

I hate computers - my home computer is so very slow. I stay as far away from it as possible - as you can tell!
I've been busy reading and researching, planning, shopping for the holidays (no gifts yet) and crafting and scrapbooking.
Tucker has been diagnosed w/ ADHD. The meds (the 1st ones) are working great so far!
His grades shot up in the very first week. He has become the example EVERYWHERE of what TO do instead of what NOT to do! CAn you believe it? I was shocked!! I had no idea I could expect this kind of result. However... (you knew that was coming right) there is a down side. The meds only work for 6-8 hours. It gets him through school. Then when he comes 'down' from the meds - oh my my. He is mouthy and hateful and argumenative. It's just awful. I try to hard to be patient - to remember it's out of his control...but I can only take so much. He does have an appt tomorrow to see how the meds are going - we will discuss this!
Thanksgiving was SO great. I was total Martha Stewart! She would have been so proud of me. We used the good china, I had the house decorated w/ fall leaves and pie pumpkins, and had the house smelling of fall spiced candles. The food was incredible (if I may so myself).
Tim and I were together all weekend ALONE! What a great weekend.
We're broke - two cars broke down $2000.00 to fix them both - so we are down to one car (the new one) guess we got that just in time. But of course that means Christmas will be next to none in my house. The one thing Tucker wants is a Sansa Shaker MP3 player it's only 30.00 and that' s all he was going to get - but it's sold out everywhere! BAHUMBUG!
I guess we'll learn the true meaning of Christmas for real in my house this year!
Oh well - I'm still blessed beyond measure!!!
I hope this finds everyone happy and healthy and blessed also.
Pat - I'm praying for you - and Josh. I'm praying for Bills' recovery.
OH! And God has blessed me some more friends that are here local. I am so excited to be meeting people that will drop in and have coffee... and sit and visit.
Thank you Lord.

2007-11-03T19:50:00.000-05:00

You probably don't remember me...

sorry!

Things have been so crazy that I'm not even about to catch you up.

Schools been very rough for Tucker... which makes things very rough at home... which makes the marriage very rough...

so in a nutshell... Tucker goes Wed @ 8:45am to get tested for ADHD. Lord I'm praying for healing and a breakthrough for this child. Something has to give. Please pray for him.

The marriage is really going pretty well - we just disagree on how to discipline Tucker at this point. Tim now has Friday and Sat. off. I can't even tell you how nice it is to actually spend an entire day w/ my husband! I forgot how wonderful Saturdays could be. We love having him home with us all day.

Church is fantastic - God is fantastic. Work sucks but then it wouldn't be work would it?

I pray for you all every single morning!

2007-09-27T20:07:00.000-05:00

God as always, comes along and picks me up and makes me feel better.
Sunday morning in church it's like every song played was just for me. Every verse spoke was just for me... it's amazing how He does that.
He came along and gave me peace. I also had to humble myself before him. I have to sacrifice my dreams and let them go. For they are no longer my dreams but the Lords' dreams for me. It's no longer about what I want and my own selfishness it's about what the Lord wants for me. And I DO want what the Lord wants for me - I just don't it know it yet! :-)
So, I am doing better and feeling better. Thanks for your love and hugs and prayers. You guys are awesome!
Not that I don't still want those things... my flesh self does. My spiritual self says - when the Lord is ready for me to have them then I will have them.
But with my new life as a christian I have to have new dreams and be open and willing to accept the blessings the Lord has for me. Blessings that i don't even know I want yet! He's so awesome and I praise Him today for His tendermercies and His never ending love! Trust me if God can love stubborn hard headed me - He can surely love you!!!

2007-09-19T15:51:00.000-05:00

Something I’ve discovered:

You know, I don’t know if men,when they are little boys have this vision of what their life will be like when they are adults.
But me (and maybe it’s just me and not all women) I have had a vision of what my adult life would be like. The family, the evenings, the sporting events, the everyday life. I have dreamed about it all my life! And let me tell you, I am SO disappointed.
It’s nothing like I dreamed it would be. Now, I didn’t dream big, I didn’t dream unrealistically. I dreamt (and dream) of a normal life. Husband, wife, two kids, and a dog. Evenings spent taking family bike rides and walks. Going together to sporting practices and games. Running errands in the evenings. Spur of the moment lets go get ice cream moments. Ya’ know? Just real typical and maybe real boring to some. All I ever wanted was average.
I’ve never had just average. (oh I’m trying not cry as I write this!) My first marriage was to a pot head, drum playing, hippie. All we did was party and hang out. His friends were more important than me and I as a 21 yr old thought that as soon as we were married we’d be my parents (who were no one to look up to mind you). Obviously now that I look back, that was unrealistic. There are days I wish I would’ve stayed in that relationship and allowed both of us to grow up. I do believe he would’ve eventually grown up. But again, maybe that is wishful thinking.
The next relationship – wow that was even more warped than the first! I won’t go into full details but I will say- I was running away from a lot of past hurts. I finally had a place where I was accepted and felt part of a group. (I didn’t fit in w/ my 1st husbands group of friends because I was and am very anti-drug I just drank a lot). Of course that relationship was very unhealthy and very co-dependant and wow, wrong for so very many reasons. So, my relationship now… I thought this one was going to be it. He said all the right things, wanted to be a family man, wanted to work 9-5, wanted a kid, wanted to raise his family in church. Well… hindsight will get ya’ everytime. I didn’t marry him for who he was, I married him for the ideas he represented to me. All the same things I wanted he wanted…so it had to work right?! WRONG! He’s now “changed his mind” on ALL of those things. So, now I’m left in a place of loneliness again. In this “lost in space” feeling. I have no where I belong. I have had this dream my whole life and now I have to tell it goodbye. I have to tell it that it’s never going to happen. It’s like loosing a best friend to cancer. The cancer has eaten at this dream over and over again for the past 17 years (since I’ve been on my own) and finally the cancer has taken it from you. It’s hard to say goodbye to something I’ve held so close and prayed for for so very long. But, if I let it go I’ll can’t be heartbroken anymore right? Okay, so that’s not going to happen but if I let it go maybe some of the hurt will stop.
I have a great life, don’t get me wrong. But something is missing, something doesn’t feel right, I feel empty every evening. I’m so tired of feeling this empty space every night. A child isn’t going to fill it alone. It’ll help but unless the rest of the dream comes with it I’m still a woman home alone every night with two kids instead of one. I don’t know…
I’m so weary… my soul is weary. I pray, I spend time in the Word everyday, I am involved in the church and a lot of goings on there, it’s not that part that is missing. That part of the dream is fulfilled. It’s the family part, it’s the part of having my best friend and husband there to share it all with and to want it all as much as I do.
I just feel so very sad.
Thanks for letting me spill it all out here …tears and all. I have no where else to spill it to!

2007-09-11T19:08:00.000-05:00

Yes, I know... it's been a long time.
I really haven't had anything to say! Life has been great. I have nothing to vent about... praise God!
My panoramic roof leaked...got it fixed. They gave me a mini-van to drive. Uh... like how do people drive those? They'll barely do 80 mph... I wouldn't dare try to pass anyone in one and unless you have popped out 5.5 kids why would you want one? I'm such a speed demon that I couldn't drive one ...ever!
I was so glad to get my car back!
I took Tucker shopping tonight, he's decided that he needs to wear boxers now so I had to go buy some (they had to have skateboarders on them) and I bought his some new clothes (had to have skateboarders on them) and a winter coat... he had to pick the orange and black one for the Bengals (OOOOOO YUCK)!
I'm going to tell everyone that it's for the Wilmington Hurricanes (our colors are orange and black also). I couldn't face the public to tell them my child is a bungles fan! GO DALLAS COWBOYS!!! WWOOO__HOOO!!!
Okay. So we're past that... church is fantastic... alot of things are really starting to change and grow and the Holy Spirit is like WAY evident! That is so exciting!
The Close to My Heart business... wow... so here is a give you goosebumps story... I went to one of my downlines open house Sat to help her out. Well while there I said man, I really need business in Wilmington! So, in the car on the way home (my wet car I might add) I said to the Lord, I really need business in Wilmington... I didn't really pray it... I just said it to him. I come home and check my voicemail WELL... (disclosure GOD IS GOOD) I had a msg from a lady at Proverbs31 gifts that my order was wrong... I call her back and we get on scrapbooking... she's a HUGE scrapbooker and they have a crop every month at her church and she wants to see my stuff and have a party! As if that wasn't cool enough... I check my email first thing Sunday morning and there is a msg from a woman in the next town who ran across CTMH on the web did a find me a consultant search and I came up and she has booked a party for the 12th of Oct. NOW! As if THAT wasn't enough... I get an email tonight from a CTMH Jr Consultant looking for a friend... she's new to the area and thought about resigning from CTMH. Man oh man... my head is spinning! Now don't tell me that Lord isn't real! Cause I'm gonna tell ya that He's REAL - REAL GOOD!
First grade is going well - shew!
Work is work... it's going well as far as work goes.
The marriage you ask? ey... it's a marriage.... actually, I'm trying to work on my attitude. I've got to make the best of it and trust that it will change. God has sent some wonderful people in our lives and I know that they are starting to impact Tim's life and I see some changes already. Evidence again of the Lord.
As the old hymn says... I have proved you over and over!
Welp, that's my life... bore bore bore to everyone else.
I am planning to get a semi-reunion together of some of my old friends from when I was 15 and younger. Going to plan that for sometime in Oct.
I am looking forward to that!! Kris - you are more than welcome to help me plan it and give me any address' that you have. I'm going to handmake the invites.
Oh! Check out my friends blog... she talks as if her baby does the talking... it's hysterical!! www.lolaandherfamily.blogspot.com
So CUTE!

2007-08-28T18:53:00.000-05:00

HI YA'LL!!!!

Happy Wednesday (by the time you read this probably). Life is going smoothly. No complaints... believe it or not!

Did I tell you I was taking Alli? I did - and finished the 20 day supply - lost 7.5 lbs in those 20 days! Woo-HOO! Ya' know, it's amazing the difference 7 lbs makes! So, I'm done with the pill and going to continue on my own. I did learn something, it's not the fat content or the calories ...it's the fat AND the calories together that make a difference. Wish me continued success.

School is going great as far as I know... no notes from the teacher yet.

Car is super!

Anniversary was fun. I got dressed up ( a little for me) actually wore a nice casual dress. Will post a pic if I get a chance. I bought Tim a watch and we went to a great italian rest for dinner. Then walked around the book store for a few and then home. I was a little disappointed I have to admit that we came home so early. I really wanted to go and do something else...stay out late and run away from reality for a little while longer...but he was too full and tired from dinner. LOL! So we came home. But we did have a good time. I got 3 Boyd's bears in a basket for a present and a card!! A real honest to goodness card!! I was so suprised and so happy you'da thought it was a diamond! hahaha! Silly how the littlest things thrill us to pieces!

That's about all that's going on here.

Sunday service was amazing! We raised the roof with our praises, the Spirit was so obvious! Another girl in service was moved to come pray with me. Come to find out we were both there alone and praying for our spouses to be with us. So...we are going to start praying for each other (because the wait is so long and hard sometimes) and praying for our spouses. It's so nice to know and such a comfort to know that someone else is in my position, sitting in church praising our awesome God alone, wishing that their spouse would come to know God's salvation.

So, it was so awesome that the spirit moved her to come pray with me... the Lord is so good!

Well... happy days to you and pray that all is going well.

Morning devotion time with Tucker is going great - I really have to give a shout out to Leigh Gray for making see how morning time (rather than night) is so much better!!! Thanks girl!

2007-08-22T19:59:00.000-05:00

First Day of School!

It was a success! He dressed like a "skateboarder" wore his hair like a "skateboarder" and carried his "skateboarder" backpack. I have a future Tony Hawk (and my child says he's Tony's #1 fan)! Man I love this kid!

When he got home he said he loved first grade, loved his teacher, and had fun! HOORAY!!

We started our day off with the Keys for Kids and it was about being postive and based from Psalm 34:1. I'm going to love this new tradition we are starting!

Hopefully I can get his dad to read it on the days I can't be here.

Well, I'm exhausted - just got home from church and must get to bed!

See ya!

Oh -

and that's Gidgette on the top there - isn't she cute?

2007-08-21T18:50:00.000-05:00

Sharon from a Hoosier family (and my fellow Assemblies of God friend) tagged me... so here goes:
Accent - Pretty southern for a northern girl...
Booze of choice - none anymore - rum back in the day
Chore I hate - Mopping the floors, it really hurts my back and cleaning the tub (which my precious hubby does for me)
Dog or Cat - Dogs for sure (I have no pets yet) but am SO not a cat person
Essential electronics - Hair dryer, microwave, computer, cell phone
Favorite perfume(s)/cologne(s) - Happy Heart #1 and Happy # 2
Gold or Silver? - Gold but have recently started wearing silver from Silpada
Hometown - Jamestown and Xenia OH
Insomnia? - No not really - I sleep through tornadoes!
.Job Title - Child of God, Wife, Mother, computer inventory manager asst sys admin, missionettes Prims teacher
WifeKids? - wife to Tim, mother to 6 yr old Tucker (& working on # 2)
Living Arrangement - 3 br/2bath/ open floor plan brand new home on 1/2 acre which I am truly in love with and have awesome God blessing stories to go w/ it!
Most admired trait - Detailed oriented hard worker and organized and can find the most effecient way to do something by the 2nd try
Overnight Hospital Stays - Having Tucker and miscarriage when I was 18
Phobia - spiders and something happening to Tucker
Quote - Nothing tastes as good as thin feels
Religion - Pentecostal Christian (Assemblies of God)
Siblings - 3 Sisters
Time I wake up - 7:30 on my own 5:00am for work
Unusual talent/skill - Unusual huh? I guess I'm sort of psychic or prophetic I guess you'd call it. (I've never really told anyone this before) but things come to me a situation or story and then later someone will tell me the story that actually happenend to them... I can think about my dad and then he'll call me and say you were thinking about me today huh and vice versa... it's weird
.Vegetable I refuse to eat - Lima Beans - I'd starve first!
.Worst habit - swearing and yelling when I finally lose my temper
X-rays - Lot's of them with my most recent ones being related to my back issues (which the Lord has healed)
.Yummy foods I make - Cakes and a killer meatloaf (add sausage that's the secret) and I don't really know what else... I guess appetizers are my specialty
Okay - now if you are reading this...tag you're it!
School starts tomorrow! HOORAY! Tucker is totally excited. I met his teacher tonight and his class is pretty small (as is the classroom). There was only two names of kids I recognized from his class last year. And one of them is the horrible Samantha! He was scared to death she'd be in his class. She's a total bully and was horrible last year... Oh I pray that he continues with the GREAT behavior we've had all summer!!
I'm excited that we don't have to do any daycare this year. That should be a huge difference in his behavior... he gets to sleep in everyday. Which to Tucker is 7-7:30am.
I've been getting things ready for the Prims class I'll be teaching at church. Trying to be really organized this year so it'll be fun for the girls and I want to take them on a couple of field trips this year. I want to be the coolest teacher ever! LOL!
I will be celebrating my 4 yr anniversary this Thursday. Actually we'll be celebrating Friday night but the 23rd is the actual day. I am so looking forward to Friday night. I've got a sitter and I'm taking Tim to this really cool new mall/city they built. It's got all kinds of really nice resturants and a books and co that takes up a whole block! It's going to be so fun!
So, that's my life...
OH! I've gotta tell ya this! Wow, God is so awesome and for those of you who know Him personally already know that.
This morning during my morning prayer and bible time I was praying about doing devotions or something with Tucker and low and behold at 5:50am (10 min before i have to wake him) here comes Tucker walking out of his room! i said what are you doing and he said (as he crawls up in my lap ) I just wanted to spend some time with you this morning. So I finished my bible reading and read him his Keys for Kids (which I've not been reading to him for a long time). What an awesome way to start his day and mine too! Wow - what a blessing. It also showed me that I can work it into our mornings. I can teach and train Tucker to spend time with God in His word in the morning while I am training myself! Thank you Heavenly Father for answering prayer, heartfelt genuine prayer so immediately and graciously. I just want to love you and edify you Lord with my thoughts and my voice and that of my family! I lift them to you oh Lord and ask that You bless us each and help to show us the way. Thank you Father for your goodness and for the Holy Spirit that you have sent here to us to guide us and talk to us! Lord you are so great and mighty!!

2007-08-18T19:15:00.000-05:00

Hi! I miss you!
Just wanted to post a little hello note!
Life is great.
Car is great.
Family is great.
God is GREAT!!!
This weather is great.
Today was like perfect.
Joy Fellowship (our women's ministry) had a garage sale scavenger hunt w/ the items we purchased being donated to the local womens center and the homeless shelter. We had 5 teams of about 4-5 women. WHAT A BLAST! We were all crazy women running around town. The team I was on won! WOO-HOO!
Last night was my scrapbook IBG at the church. I had 3 hours to work w/ no interuptions. I got 1 calendar page done that I'm making and 1 scrapbook page. Not bad!
Life has been going along really well. I've lost 6.5 lbs and I've been hitting the weights big time and eating very clean. Even if I go out to eat! Which is something I never could do but am making myself do it! I'm so proud!
Tucker starts school Wed. we are all ready and excited for it now. Supplies are bought and we got the shoes today.
Tucker and I went out to eat at a nice sit down resturant today...by ourselves and had wonderul conversation. It's amazing how they grow up over 1 short summer! I just love my kid.
I still haven't taken more pics of the car...sorry. I'm doing good to get out here to post a msg.
Tomorrow mom and I are coloring hair... and hanging out after church.
Sounds like another wonderful day!
Hope all is well with you. I do love and miss you each!
I find myself driving to work and thinking um.. I wonder what Pat is doing today? or sitting eating dinner and think, I wonder if Neicey is feeling better today. It's funny how each of you cross my mind. El - hows the wedding plans coming?

2007-08-11T18:39:00.000-05:00

Ok... I don't know why...but I can not upload the photos... it keeps saying this page can not be displayed. I can't imagine the file size is too big but perhaps I've messed up the setting... will try and take new pics and see if that helps.
Oh well...
Today is a GORGEOUS day! I wish all summer had been like today. We hung at the pool for 4 and half hours (and now I'm crispy). Apparently waterproof doesn't mean all day. Oh well, it'll turn brown tomorrow. I went and got all of Tucker's schools supplies...all we need now is shoes.
Tucker and I went to Taco Bell and had dinner. What a glorious day the Lord has made!
He knew how much I needed it!
I can't wait till tomorrow. I love praising Him and singing and being in His presence!
Hope you all had a blessed day too!

2007-08-10T15:21:00.000-05:00

My new baby!
I'm so proud of her... 2005 Pontiac G6 GT and her name is Gidgett!
I told you of my car woes... so we went looking...to do that ...look. We found the greatest car at the greatest deal and we couldn't pass her up. Get this... she has seat warmers! No more cold winter time butt. Leather seats, 6 disc in dash cd, automatic OR manual transmission, I can press the info button and it will tell me how many more miles I have to drive before I need to get gas (like a trip but in reverse) so cool! OH! And the panoramic roof... I AM so loving it! She's got a lot of get up and go and that' s just what a speed demon like me doesnt need but totally loves!
So that's my good news. Praise God for it! He made it all possible. Other than that nothing going on here. It's been to hot to do anything.
My hubby is taking us out for dinner and a movie. Family night - how fun! We're getting along better (by the grace of God) so thanks for your prayers!
Miss you all!

2007-08-02T19:46:00.000-05:00

I hate cars!
The AC went out at the beginning of the summer... had it charged... it didn't work. So, I've been driving around with the windows down - no biggie - until today.
The front right window already doesn't work - so that leaves me 3 windows to use. Today at 92 degrees - the 3 windows don't help alot... the back window decided not to go up today... so we bought a $54 motor... put it in just so we could get it up... now I can't put it down anymore.... I am now down to two windows! The neighbor checked the AC out and it is my compressor that is bad... we were quoted $900 in the beginning. My car is only worth $900! UGH!
And of course we in no way shape or form have that kind of money!
I am grateful to have a car that is paid for, I was grateful for a car that had windows, I was okay w/o the AC wasn't thrilled but I'm tough I could handle it. But now I have one front window that works and one back window that works... it's 90 outside... that doesn't make me happy.
My dear husband (after his fit was over) is going to take it around tomorrow and get some quotes and let me use his car to go to work... I love him!
The good part of my day.... I came home before I picked up Tucker and had kid free you know what.... oh! My husband is so gorgeous! :-)
See ya all!!

2007-07-31T18:54:00.000-05:00

Hi everybody... I finally found a minute (& literally it's only a minute).
I wanted to say hello to everyone so you wouldn't forget about me. I feel so left out! I'll tell ya' being without the internet for a whole week is AWFUL! I felt so out of touch. So, I got caught up on most of the blogs, Pamie - is yours not there anymore? Please email me an update of your life. I won't pass judgement - I'll just listen and pray.
So, North Carolina was wonderful. It was cloudy everyday so no tans. We did have a great time though and did one thing a day and the pool every evening. Lots of GREAT GREAT food. We ate at La Strada in Lake Lure - great pizza and pasta. Gregory's ( a hole in the wall) in Rutherfordton had the BEST chicken wings ever... I tried to buy the sauce but they weren't sellin', we had the BEST onion rings ever at Spears Barbeque and Resteraunt in Linville. Wow... good southern food! The best service too. I just love the south. I see myself living in the south one day. I'd be the perfect southern bell sitting on my plantation wrap around porch or on a blanket under the willow tree sipping my very sweet southern tea! I pick up the accent in just a matter of days being down there. It's so my pace!
We hiked in the mountains of Chimny Rock and that was the best time we had. We laughed and played and really enjoyed each other. I also realized w/ this time w/ my kid how very smart and witty he truly is! He's very wise... I can't even tell you. Something happened and I said we'd pray and he said yep, that's the best thing we could do mom is pray! I thought I'd fall apart at that very moment! I just truly love that kid.
Work has been so busy - but since they've blocked blogs - I'm really kickin' butt!
I started eating healthy again yesterday. Not that I stopped - but I started junking out when I got home. Well... I bought this new pill called Alli. It's a fat blocker. So... now I HAVE to eat low fat or else I'll get sick! That's one way to do it. I only got a 20 day supply to start and see how it works. I'm also back in the gym and hitting the weights full swing. I did alot of swimming and treading water and hiking while I was on vacation so I didn't take a total break. So, my goal is 25 lbs by this time next year. It's very realistic and puts me at a very healthy weight. So... that's what is new in my life. OH tomorrow is mom's b-day and I'm taking her out to lunch. She picked the Cheesecake Factory!!!! I've been dying to go there... and now... all I can have is soup! Man this bites! LOL! But - it'll be worth it this time next year.
Also, pray for me... the desire to smoke is so very strong! Especially now that I'm trying not to eat. I know it's a habit that I don't want to pick back up in my mind... but my body is saying yes. So please pray that the Lord will give me strength and wisdom in this matter. OH and will power! Thanks ladies - I know I can count on you.
We cleaned house before we left so when we came home there would be nothing to do. Man, it just confimred how much I love my house. We walked in and it smelled so good, and I love the colors. It's so soothing and warm. It's just a modest 3 bedroom ranch but it's so open and filled wtih old things and new things that blend so wonderfully. Very homey and I just praise God for providing it! He is so good.
So, that is my life... no news on the baby front. We haven't much time to practice lately either! haha - we were so tired every night on vacation we hardly kept our eyes open to crawl into bed! LOL
Well, I pray for you all every day and I pray that all is going well in your lives. I was so happy to read tonight that everyone seems really blessed and in a mode of praise. That is sooooo fantastic!! God is good to us isn't he girls?
Well - love ya all! It's time to get Tucker in the bath.

2007-07-16T20:34:00.000-05:00

It's ALIVE!!! Alive I tell you!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey all!! Oh my gosh - I miss you all so much. I've got caught up a few of your lives but not all of you yet...
my life has been so hectic. I can't even tell you what all I did last week (it seems so long ago). I do know that Tucker had his last T-ball game Wed. night. I am SO glad that's over. He does not want to play soccer this year. So... I get a break until basketball.
I can't believe 5 weeks until school starts. It feels like they just got out. Summer is not nearly long enough!
Jungle Jaunt VBS started this week. I am teaching the 4th, 5th, and 6th graders this year. AAAHHH, a much better age than 5yr olds! Thank you Jesus - you knew what I could handle this week. Tonight was alot of fun and I a looking forward to tomorrow night.
Next week I'll be very quiet... I'll be in Lake Lure North Carolina!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh it so beautiful there. I love the mountains! I'm sure we'll do Chimney Rock we always do, that's where Last of the Mohicans was filmed. FABU! We might do the Biltmore Estates because I never have all the years i've been. I think it's something my husband would enjoy being an antique collectore and all.
(pardon all my typo's...it's getting late and I've got to get to bed)
OH! yesterday... I took Tuck to see Wizard of Oz at a close by dinner theater. We loved it! We were 5" from stage and the witch flew RIGHT over our heads. He was in awe!! I think I might take him back at Christmas time.
Please be in prayer for my marriage. For those of you that have been around for the past year know my ups and downs. Right now - I'm in a down. I hate how nasty his job has made him. He's so negative and nasty and ugly all the time. He never has a nice word to say about anyone and that is so hard for me to be around. I'm such an up person who believes in the good of all people and he so brings me down. I'm struggeling with my prayer life and christian walk in result of it. I need to hold tightly to our Lord Jesus! He is our Savior - He is MY savior and He will not ever leave or forsake me! I so need to keep repeating that to myself tonight.
Other than that... my life is moving along. Tucker is wonderful. GORGEOUS little boy!
We went and visited Tim's family Sat. evening. David and Beth are doing much better and David is moving around pretty well. It was so great to see them! I think Tim really enjoyed hisself.
Well... I'm sure I have more to say...but I've got to get to bed... I love you all and I do pray for you all each and every day!
Kris - looks like you had a wonderful time... I am soooo glad... what a blessing!
Neicey - I would've went to Denver too...life is too short! Hope you have a rockin good time!! Be safe!
Pat - I'm so proud of you... going alone would've been so hard for me... so really I applaud you!

2007-07-09T19:26:00.000-05:00

Please don't think I don't love you.

My work has blocked access to all blog pages. I knew it would come eventually. So, I can no longer visit and comment on your pages daily. I am SO going to miss you guys. I will still check in from home but probably only once a week. I very rarely use this computer.
Really, I feel like I've lost my best friend... it was the first thing i did in the mornings. While i ate my toast and drank my coffee, I read all my friends lives and prayed for them! I'm very sad.
So, if there is something you need or want me to know during the day send me an email at work holli.smith@wpafb.af.mil
So. I had a great weekend with my family. All of us girls went out for brunch w/ mom Sat morning and then shopping. We've never been shopping all together before. That was fun! We went to a waterpark Friday and had a blast - before my husband ruined it. But we won't go there.
Just pray for him and his salvation please.
I trust the Lord. He will answer and I will be blessed for what I have lived with. I try to be the best wife I can be - I keep telling myself it's for the Lord. Don't get me wrong - I'm not abused or anything... well verbally I am... but I'm strong enough and confident enough in myself to handle it. and when I'm not... I hand it to the Lord at the alter and He takes it for me and heals me.
Well, I really need to get to bed after I snuggle with my incredibly beautiful boy.
OH! We went through some old pics at moms... that was hysterical. I was such a dork growing up! LOL! We had some great laughs. I truly am blessed and thank the Lord for the great and normal childhood I had growing up. I know I am rare to have had it so good!
Hope you all have a great week. Check in with you as soon as I can!

2007-07-05T06:52:00.000-05:00

Why we fight the traffic and the crowds: a great big WOW!

2007-07-05T05:49:00.000-05:00

Happy birthday/happy anniversary Kris! I pray that the day was everything you wanted it to be!!
We had a great cook-out (or should I say cook-in) despite the rain. My dear hubby stood in the downpour and grilled all the food! A great time was had by all. We got it cleaned up, took the kids to the pool when the rain stopped they played in the ice cold water, we came home and played Chatter (so fun) and then watched fireworks... that sums up my day.
I truly enjoyed spending the time with my family!
Tomorrow the rain clears up and gives way to sunny skies, thank goodness! We are all going to the Beach waterpark and going to enjoy fun in the sun!
Hope you all had a great 4th of July (especially you Kris)!
Talk to you soon.

2007-07-02T12:00:00.000-05:00

Oh joy it's Monday...
I should be elated but I am so PMS -y I can't stand it!
Again, I've been waiting for this day so we can start trying for babies again but it's such bad timing and I'm so angry with this one! I'm a challenge for God right now! He's keeping His hand over my mouth and His other arm around my shoulder. I want so badly to start spurting out the things that are driving me crazy to my husband but of course now is not the time and the things I'd say are not the things I should say...
Oh Lord God, please give me peace in my soul. Give me the strength to keep my big mouth shut - EVEN if provoked! I trust in You oh Lord and I believe in your awesome power and You Lord can do all things, which includes keeping me quiet... thank you my Heavenly Father!

My sister made it in Friday night and it was awesome to see her and her dh! We spent a couple of hours together then and then again Saturday evening. She's going to come over tomorrow night and visit a bit. Then the cookout is Wed. I can't wait to have us all together!
Tucker and I enjoyed our weekend. It was pretty quiet. We hung out at the pool yesterday for a few hours. Then he came home and zonked out in the recliner for a couple of hours.
OH! I went on ebay and looked at scrapbook stuff. I am SO not into ebay so it's the 2nd time ever I've ever bid. I won it (I won the 1st time too). I got a cricut w/ 2 cartridges! I SOOOO can not wait to get it and start using it. Kris - you can use it any time! So can any of you - come on over! I got a good deal - $150 and that includes shipping! Still more than I really wanted to pay but a good deal still.
Now... I have to tell you about service yesterday! Oh my gosh! The presence of the Lord was so amazingly powerful! Let me tell you what...we never even got to service! We were in praise and worship, typical Sunday morning... then the Lord spoke through one of our congregation members... and it was on! We had people going to the alter right then... then we had people going up to pray w/ and for those people, THEN the WHOLE church was down there on the steps and at the alters and on the front pew! People were shouting their praise, they were giving their testimonies, and repenting! There were tears of joy everywhere... it was such a mountaintop! Such a victory for my church whose numbers have been suffering greatly lately. I mean... I can't even explain it in words... even me (who doesn't speak out in church or even pray out loud) gave my shouts of praise to God for saving my life... from saving me from disease and alcholism, and reaching out to save me from the depths of my hell and changing my life. I am living PROOF that God is alive and working! I am a walking testimony! The spirit of the Lord was in the house and it was so wonderful to see and to feel! I am so blessed to have been in His presence! I just can't even tell you! There is such a breakthrough coming I feel it!
We are talking about reaching out to the lost... not just inviting them to church but befriending them. Loving them, never giving up on them, even if it takes 8 years or 34 years... loving your new friend and being God's light in their life. YOU maybe the only true contact they have with Jesus... what kind of example are you to your lost friends? Do you have friends that are lost? Or are you a "cocooner" you've wrapped yourself around with all christian friends? I'm bad about keeping the two groups seperate. I am so afraid one group may offend the other group. Now how crazy is that?! If my christian friends are really christian then they will accept my lost friends and they will tolerate (only somewhat) their lanquage... my friends do try to watch that around me... but together we can be a great light to these lost friends of mine! I have neighbors down the street who helped start a church in our community - this church has grown from 8 people 10 years ago to 2008 people!! BUT... do you know why everyone is there? Because they are getting the feel good message... they aren't being convicted because God isn't there! I've been to that church and it isn't there. The preacher is a politican! Well, my neighbors don't go there anymore... the husband/father was raised in a christian school and church and now they don't go anywhere after the really bad experience with that church. I am so going to love on them and be God's light in there life and be as real as possible and pray for them and when God leads invite them to church.
Man, I love my pastor and his wife. They are truly spirit led and spirit fed!
Welp, have a nice Monday! Don't know when I'll post again... maybe Thursday!
Love you all!

2007-06-27T07:36:00.000-05:00

Hi! I know I've been MIA this week. Just really nothing to talk about and I've been really busy here at work. I've been drowning in paperwork and serial numbers! I've muttled my way through that and now on to the next task.
I've been reading the book of Kings. I have never read the bible through. I have never been able to make it past the first couple of books. Well for some reason Kings has been on my heart so I've started reading it. And because of Leigh's wonderful posts and the DVD she sent me I am making time for God in the morning not at night. Pastor Aaron preached Sunday about putting on your belt of truth. How that holds everything together. And he was right, I never thought of it like that, I need my belt during the day not at night before I go to bed. And... it makes a difference in my day. It starts it off and I pray before I read that God gives me understanding and that I get what He's trying to tell me through His word. Which... too helps throughout the day.
Lets see if I can catch you up on the past few days:
Friday: Tiff and I had a GREAT massage and so loved the new cafe Cup of Grace we went too. So nice to be in a christian atmosphere! We really enjoyed our girl time and can't wait to do it again! Tim and I went to dinner that night, I had ribs which I never ever get because of the mess but Max & Erma's has THE best ribs ever! The fall off the bone and I love them!
Then we went to see Ocean's 13. If you saw Ocean's 11 or 12 then you've seen 13. They are all the same. But who can pass up an opportunity to see Al Pacino, Brad Pitt, Matt Damon AND George Clooney all on the same screen. SO HOT! LOL!
Sat: got my kid back *YA* took him to a birthday part he was so bad (so tired) we left early and went to bed at 7:30!!!!!!!!!! Yep 7:30 pm (still very light out) on a Saturday night we went to bed!
Sunday: We went to church, HUBBY TOO! YA!! Then we went together to the Dragon's baseball game. Instead of a summer picnic my company takes us all to the baseball game. OMG! We had such a blast! Tucker was very good and it was his 1st ball game with daddy. We all enjoyed our time together.
Monday: I went to the library and got a book for Tucker so we can start his summer studies so he's ready for 1st grade and a scrapbook book for me (it's not very useful at all and it's really old)! Oh well. Then Tucker and Spencer played all night. It was a very peaceful night.
Tuesday: Ballgame - my dad came up to watch. We won 31-30. We played Tucker's BF team. that was alot of fun. Tucker played pretty well. It's just so cute to watch these kids! We got home about 9:30 and got to bed around 10ish. That is SO very late for us! I get up at 5am and I get TK up at 6am. So 10pm is too late for us!
Welp, that catches you up on my life. So boring but I love it!
Today my hubby is working 1st shift so it was so nice to start the day seeing him. He'll get to go to church tonight w/ us! I love when he works 1st shift.
I'm actually going to make an actual dinner! (hope he doesn't faint) haha!
I usually feed Tucker ramen noodles, soup or lunchable or spaghetti o's or hot dogs. I usually eat a bag of steamfresh vegies. Those by the way... are so good! Stick it in the microwave 5 min it's done, rip the top off the bag poor it in a bowl and wa-la! A yummy veggie!
I'm all about easy baby!
I am SOOOOO excited about this weekend and next week. My little sis flies in Friday night w/ her hubby. We haven't seen him in over 2 years! It's been a yr since we've seen her. My other sister (the preacher) is coming down from up north and we are having a big 'ole family picnic on July 4th at my house. Then Friday to a waterpark. All of us...together! Man I wish my sisters lived local! I can't wait to have us all together in one place. Tucker can't wait for his cousin Nate to get here. Nate is almost 16 and is SOO good with Tucker. Tucker idolizes Nate. They ride skateboards together and do cool bike tricks. So stinking cute! And my beautiful nieces! Me-Me (Megan) and PJ... wow they are so beautiful. I can't wait to spend time with them too.
This next week is going to be so much fun!
Well, that catches you up on my life.
Pray about something for me will ya'? I really really feel God telling me to do something. It's something REALLY risky finacially, and it's something that I have no knowledge about. But of course I know God will open all doors, and provide me all the knowledge I need if it's His will.
Pray that opportunities arise if it is His will and that I will go forth boldly.
Thanks!

2007-06-22T06:27:00.000-05:00

Happy Friday!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!
What a glorious week this has been. Today will be no expception! It started out wonderfully already. I listen to a local christian radio station that is a couple of towns away. They play alot of stuff from old hyms, to quartet, to newer contemporary stuff. Anyways... I half heard what the DJ said as I was driving into work, I heard her say something about Sandi Patty CD...call now... so she answers and says 2nd caller and I thought I lost... NOPE I won it! I also won a gift certificate for a new christian coffee/sandwich shop (Cup of Grace). Isn't that cool?! And...I have worked over all week so I can leave early today. My friend and I are leaving early and going to get massages and then hang by the pool ...however it is supposed to rain so I think we'll go to this new coffee shop and hang out! God is great how he works it all out.
I was supposed to get my haircut yesterday (1st time since August of LAST year). I know, and I'm a beautician... I SO know better! But she had to cancel, her baby was sick, so I just went home. I got some more invites done for the family cookout on the 4th and then I woke Tim up and we went and laid around the pool, then came home and did hambugers and french fries, watered the plants and watched a little Oprah that I DVR'd. Pretty boring night, nice and quiet, just like I like them! It was nice to have my and Tim time. Although he TOTALLY ticked me off...but since I'm trying to be "over it" I'm not going to talk about it or else I'll have myself all riled up again. See, God is working on me still!
Yesterday afternoon Tiff and I went for a walk instead of lifting and we just praised God the whole time, just lifted Him up for all the things He's done for us. Gave Him thanks for the small victories that add up to the big victory of salvation. God is so good and that was such a fun walk to be on!
Thought for the day: 2 Cor 10:5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
I thought of my blogger friends when I read this one... ladies we need to stop berating ourselves, we need to stop focusing on the negatives, and we need to hold captive those very thoughts that bring us down. We need to bound them up for what is bound on earth is bound in heaven. We need to keep our thoughts focused on Christ and think positive, and say over and over "God I trust you in this situation, or I trust you for this healing, or I trust you for this finance" He is big enough and great enough. We need to change our way of thinking and start thinking and believing (I mean REALLY believing) that God will work it out!
God bless you all and have a beautiful Christ filled weekend!

2007-06-21T08:58:00.000-05:00

I received this in email this morning - I love these things. I had a post up HUGE post about service last night - and now it's gone... and I did Publish Post and I viewed it and all... even had a mispelled word and I didn't bother to fix it... where is it now Blogspot?!

1. What is your occupation? Inventory specialist (whatever) and assistant system admin 2. What color are your socks right now? none wearing flip flops 3. What are you listening to right now? the hum of the computers and printers 4. What was the last thing that you ate? skyline 5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yes6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? feeling tan today 7. Who is the person you last spoke to on the phone? Tim 8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yeah, I guess so (only kidding Hol) 9. How old are you today? 35
10. Favorite drink?
Mt Dew 11. What is your favorite sport to watch? NFL football .
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes...
13. Pets? nope 14. Favorite food? Mexican
15. What movie did you see last and did you like it?
Music and Lyrics and yes, I actually laughed out loud a couple of times
16. Favorite month? Any of the warm ones !
17. What do you do to vent anger? Clean my house and yell 18. What was your favorite toy as a kid?
Light Bright
19. Favorite season? Summer 20. Hugs or kisses? hugs
21. Cherries or Blueberries? Blueberries22. Do you want your friends to write back? Sure 23. Who is most likely to respond? Rachael
24. Who is least likely to respond? Holly (since she sent it to me to begin w/) 25. What is best about your living arrangements? I don't know... I guess because I'm alone alot I get alot done!
26. When was the last time you cried?
Two weeks ago Tuesday.
27. What is on the floor of your closet? Shoes, laundry baskets, purses and bags
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? Chris Baker 29. What did you do last night? slept by the pool alone, church, skyline with Shelly 30. Who is your favorite music group? Of all time, Allman Brothers, single artist, Melissa Etheridge, right now really into Bela Fleck 31. What inspires you?
People who live their lives how they want to w/o any concern of who's watching and people who stand up and make a difference like foster parents 32. What are you afraid of? Losing Tucker
33. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? cheese 34. What is your favorite dog breed? Doberman 35. Number of keys on your key ring? 2 36. How many years at your current job? 15 this December!
37. Favorite day of the week? Saturday38. What states/Provinces have you lived in? OHIO & California 39. Favorite Holiday ? Tucker's birthday? No kidding, Christmas 40.Ever driven/owned a motorcycle? nope just a rider
41. WHO ARE YOU~(YOUR FULL NAME) Holli (y) Christian Branham, Huffman, Scoggins, Smith (thought you'd all get a laugh at that) Geesh, such a loser!

2007-06-21T07:08:00.000-05:00

Church was so good last night!
We are supposed to be studying the Holy Spirit right now but my wondeful and amazing pastor can take off on another track sometimes. I fully believe he's led by the spirit. The msg surely touched me.
We talked about "walking across the room" we can witness that easily. See someone sitting in a corner, go over and talk to that person, get to know them, smile at them. Make them feel noticed, and loved. Guess what... you were just a witness for Christ. You showed His love and His light that is w/in you. You want to be a witness? What is your testimony? Who can benefit from it? Mine? Well, I could talk to teens and young adults about sex and the vicious circle of trying to feel beautiful and loved and how sex makes you feel that way for a minute... then you feel worse and uglier afterwards. I could talk about alcohol and partying. I could talk about the addiction to porn. I could tell them how they will be only disappointed in sex and in their partner after watching porn. I could witness that you can be a christian and a straight female after living the lesbian lifestyle! Yep, I am an awesome witness for God! I am totally changed and am holy in the eyes of theLord! Yep, me, little old me. Honey, I was down in it... I was in the middle of hell and didn't even know it until I got to the bottom of it! Then I turned my eyes upward to the Lord and my heart followed and then the Lord our Jesus our Savior reached down, plucked me out of hell and has washed me clean in His blood. He witnessed to me, He set my path straight and said Go, go tell My people about Me and what I have done.
Oh thank you Lord!
My night was so awesome. I laid by the pool and on the raft and fell asleep as I floated around all by myself. Everyone else had left the pool, it was an amazing moment! Then after church a new friend and I went to Skyline (oh I have put on a few pounds this week)! Then I went home so filled with love and joy and went to bed!
My hubby is off today and I can't wait to spend time with him this evening, and tomorrow night we have a date. Saturday, well it's back to reality as Tucker comes home. I can't wait to see my boy! Tomorrow I am leaving work early w/ my BFF Tiff. We are going to the school of massage and getting massaged (duh) and then going to go lay by the pool for the afternoon. Then I'll be home by 4ish and take a shower and spend the evening w/ hubby (my other BFF) hehe.
It's been a great week and I thank the Lord for it. He knew I needed it!
Love you all!
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Go to the shoponline and then at the bottom the discounts page. That's stuff that is retired and I can't get even as a consultant. They have some great deals! Our acrylic stamps ROCK! Better than any you'll find in the scrapbook store. If you have any questions feel free to contact me!

2007-06-20T07:46:00.000-05:00

Oh! Thanks for asking Kristi - I forgot to update ya'll. David and Beth (the BIL and SIL) are doing well. They got to bring David home Monday night. He's still in a TON of pain and not moving around alot but is getting better. Beth is healing well too. We kind of think that they sent David home early because he has no insurance. He was two days, yep 2 days away from having insurance! That family can't get a break. They can never get ahead and just as soon as it looks like they'll make ends meet something happens. It's a shame. Keep on praying for them!
I'm hoping that since he was new to his job that they will hold his job for him! We don't know how long it will be before he gets to go back to work but w/ no insurance that means no short term/long term ins. So, if he's not working, he's not getting paid! Beth doesn't work because she could get a mimimum wage job and then not be able to afford child care and then NOW, who would be there to take care of David at this point. GEESH! Vicious cycle! BUT! The positive note... they are alive, they will recover and God is good!
I had my last blood test yesterday, they will call today with the results and it should be a zero!
I SO enjoyed myself last night. I laid on the couch and watched whole programs no interuptions. I ordered a pizza with EVERYTHING on it, no cheese pizza for me! YA! I also sat on the couch and ate it, under a blanket, with the TV on.... aaaahhh that's the life!
I painted my nails and let them dry! I did clean his room (quickly) and came out with a garbage bag of trash. Everytime he leaves I clean his room and dwindle down the toys. Gotta pitch those happy meal toys!
Went to bed at 8:15 and had a great nights sleep!
I could get used to this. Okay, not really, I miss my kid tons but am going to make every minute of this time count!
Happy Wednesday to everyone. May God bless and keep each of you!

2007-06-19T08:35:00.000-05:00

AAAAhhh, the single life....life before kids.... WHATEVER DID I DO?!?!??!

I did lay by the pool and sleep and float around for a couple of hours, went to Olive Garden w/ the ladies from church and then got home...
and had no idea what to do!
I'm starting to miss boy! It's only Tuesday... and when I get him back on Saturday I'll be so happy and by next Tuesday will be begging for another day off! hahaha!
That's part of the fun of motherhood.
I go today for my last bloodtest. That's my only plan for the whole day and night.
Think I'll go to bed at 8:00 tonight... I stay up so late when Tucker isn't home. Trying to do all those things I want to do when he's there that I can't get done.
Anywho... hope you are having a blessed day!
Hoping some rain comes your way if you need it as bad as we do!

2007-06-18T06:13:00.000-05:00

Happy Monday morning to ya'll!!
What a wonderful weekend. My Tucker left Saturday to go w/ Nana and Papa & mamaNae (from Georgia) for a WHOLE WEEK!! WOO-HOO!!!
So, I scrapbooked and made cards Saturday night, got Music & Lyrics off of PPV. Cute movie btw. Sunday went to church, SO nice not to get anyone else ready but myself! Came home, watched a video Leigh Gray sent me (finally) and what a beautiful, adorable, funny, and spirit led woman she is! WOW! She's an awesome speaker and I am hoping that my MOPS leader from church invites Leigh to come! I'm not part of MOPS but if she comes - I'm going! She sent me the DVD because she talks about a miscarriage - however the video was about living a balanced life. It was great and backed up all w/ scripture. I've posted her link on here before. One of these days I'll have Kris show me how to put links down the side of my page! OH! And Leigh, let me know if you want me to send that back to you. I don't want to keep it if it's your only copy!
Anyways... then I took Daddy out to El Dorado's for dinner and then we came back and put Bela Fleck & The Flecktones (an AMAZINGLY talented trio) on in the garage and listened to music and talked and just really enjoyed his company! He went home and I made some more cards. I'm making the cutest picnic invitations for July 4 for a cookout when my baby sister is home from Montana. I also worked on the recipe card kit that I'm making for my cousin who is getting married. I'm going to put a couple of my Grandma's recipes in there, a couple of my favs and ask some of the family (other aunts and such) for a couple of their favs! Cute idea huh? I'm getting pretty crafty in my old age! LOL!
I am really looking forward to tonight. It's Joy Fellowship at church. We are meeting at 5:30 and heading off to Olive Garden! Stuffed chicken marsala here I come!!!! OH YA! I love Joy Fellowship. I love getting together with the ladies from church and learning from each of them and getting to know them as friends! Have a great day ya'll, I pray the Lord will bless you all and I pray that you keep Him first in your thoughts!
PS Leigh, that video touched me more than you know... thanks for being obedient! I pray that God will bless your socks (and shoes) off with your ministry!

2007-06-16T09:42:00.001-05:00

2007-06-15T07:04:00.000-05:00

Good Friday mornin' to ya'!
I was out yesterday... Tim's (my hubby) brother David and his wife were in a very serious car accident. It's amazing they survived! And this time... no seat belt was a good thing!
David pulled into an intersection with a hill and a truck (carrying cars) popped over the hill doing 70mph and plowed into the side of them. David has 3 fractured ribs, 3 fractured vertebrae in his neck and is (understandably) so very sore all over. He had surgery Wed. on his neck and it went well no paralysis! Praise the Lord! Beth is wife has suffered a head injury and has 12 staples in her head but has been released from the hospital. She has serious road rash on her shoulder where she was hanging sideways out of the car and drug along the road! Now go back and read that again and then praise the LORD! She said she yelled David's name and when he answered her she said the only thing she could think to do is get on her knees and she started praying. The 1st person on the scene came up to her and she asked him are you a christian man and he said I'm a preacher! He ran to his car grabbed a towel prayed over it and laid it on her head to help the bleeding and started reading from the bible. He started with the Lord is my shepard and Beth stopped him and said NO! They read that one at funerals and the Lord said I'm not going home yet! WOW WOW WOW! She said she has no pain in her head! She said the pain she feels is in her shoulder! Well I say YEP, that's proves it again there is a God! He reveals Himself to us daily! Do be in prayer for the family they have two kids who were w/ Grandma at the time (again Praise the Lord)! They are missing mommy and daddy very much. Haven't been away from each other for more than a day! David is still in ICU and was talking a little yesterday. They were hoping to stand him up and do some more xrays of his spine this time to make sure everything in his back lines up. Both of them recently (w/in the past year) gave their lives to the Lord. This accident could have had a much different outcome! Scary to think!
Tim and I did have a very blessed day together even though we had to go to a hospt. We really enjoyed each others time and company. We went to the pool last evening with Tucker and Tim and I were swimming around and kissing and hugging and Tucker was totally grossing out! I LOVE IT! It totally cracked me up and it was one of those moments in time that you knew would freeze in your brain forever and when everything felt right in the world. I love those moments and cherish those times because they come few and far between.
We are going to the comedy club tonight w/ a couple of other couples. Tim got free tickets. That ought to be a good time and I am looking forward to it!
Tomorrow I have relay for life walk and a last minute baby shower that I want to pop in at. Other than that a peaceful weekend is planned! YEAH! Hoping you have lots of sunshine and good times. I pray for each of you that cross this blog and I pray for my friends who have connected to me through this site I pray God blesses you abundantly not with things but with health, peace, family and friends!! God bless you all!

2007-06-13T09:03:00.001-05:00

Lifes been boring and routine so here's a laugh!

A little Christian humor
Jesus and Satan were having an on-going argument about who was better on the computer. They had been going at it for days, and frankly God was tired of hearing all the bickering. Finally fed up, God said, "THAT'S IT! I have had enough. I am going to set up a test that will run for two hours, and from those results, I will judge who does the better job." So Satan and Jesus sat down at the keyboards and typed away. They moused. They faxed. They e-mailed. They e-mailed with attachments. They downloaded. They did spreadsheets! They wrote reports. They created labels and cards. They created charts and graphs. They did some genealogy reports They did every job known to man. Jesus worked with heavenly efficiency and Satan was faster than hell. Then, ten minutes before their time was up, lightning suddenly flashed across the sky, thunder rolled, rain poured, and, of course, the power went off. Satan stared at his blank screen and screamed every curse word known in the underworld. Jesus just sighed. Finally the electricity came back on, and each of them restarted their computers. Satan started searching frantically, screaming: "It's gone! It's all GONE! "I lost everything when the power went out!" Meanwhile, Jesus quietly started printing out all of his files from the past two hours of work. Satan observed this and became irate. "Wait!" he screamed. "That's not fair! He cheated! How come he has all his work and I don't have any?" God just shrugged and said, JESUS SAVES

2007-06-11T12:28:00.000-05:00

Oh and while I'm at it...
I collect Longaberger baskets (but I use them)
I am 16th cousins w/ Queen Elizabeth (but don't know which one)
If I am on time for something I am late... I like to be 10 min. early for everything and I expect everyone to be on time! I feel so put off if you are late.
I know... how anal!

2007-06-11T11:16:00.000-05:00

Okay, I am so boring this is going to be tough... but here we go!
1.) My name is Holli born w/ a y changed it legally in 99 .
2.)I was born a week for before Christmas therefore the name... and middle name is Christian. 3.) I have 3 sisters 44, 41, and 28. We are very spread apart in age.
4.) I have a 6 year old Tucker
5.) Tucker means to torment ( I didn't know that when I named him).
6.) I will have been married to my husband, Tim 4 yrs in August.
7.) I love dogs and most animals but HATE cats. Find them to be very dirty nasty critters!
8.) My 1st dog was a mini poodle Suzette.
9.) My favorite dog was Niesha - a red doberman. THE BEST DOG I EVER OWNED! I miss her terribly
10.) My husband has OCD and can't stand the thought of an animal in the house.
11.) I have lost two children. One miscarriage at 7 weeks and one when I was 18 at 5 months
12.) I look back at the one when I was 18 - wow what a blessing that was now!13.) We just built our home a year ago. I LOVE my home.14.) God is using my home as a blessing to others... I just know it!
15.) My father is a gifted furniture maker and artist. You should the art in my house!
16.) My husband and I love antiques. He got me into it.
17.) He collects antique fruit jars.. (really expensive glass) geesh! 18.) I was a WILD child starting at age 14 and didn't stop until 30. 19.) I am PROOF that God is alive and working and that he still performs miracles
20.) I have worked for my company for 15 years this December
21.) I was a hair dresser before this job 22.) I was a cheerleader in HS. I wish now that I would've played sports so that I could play sports now.23.) I love the beach, I love to swim
24.) I am a total sun woshiper. I lay out for hours.
25.) In my old age -and after a cancer scare I now where sun screen and still get a glorious tan! who knew?!
26.) I love nature and hiking
27.) I HATE riding a bike
28.) I LOVE to drive fast (really fast) and drove a race car once in a powder puff. Most fun time ever!
29.) My friends (once I turned 16) called me Maria Andretti
30.) I grew up in a Nazarene church my entire life. I now go to a penecostal church and love it!
31.) I have no pttience for people who aren't willing to stand up and take charge of their lives.
32.) I have no patience for complainers - get up and change it!
33.) I had a very normal childhood. Rode bikes till dark etc.
34.) I was raped/attempted raped... 4 times by the time I was 18. By different people
35.) My life choices were based on those experiences. But I have been cleansed by God's blood. 36.) I have 2 nephews and 2 nieces. 37.) My husband is 1/2 Korean (his mother) and 1/2 caucasion (his father)
38.) He's incredibly sexy in his deputy uniform39.) His uniform is the only thing I like about his job40.) People think Tucker is Tim's - they have the same eyes. It's crazy!41.) I was artificially inseminated w/ Tucker 42.) I have two uterus, two cervix and only one kidney
43.) I was a tomboy - had to have a boys bike and all!
44.) My life long friend is Angie - knew her since I was 5
45.) I was born in Mt. View California
46.) I wish we were still there!
47.) I have huge gaps in my memory as far as school days - must've been the drugs I did!
48.) I could've been an alcoholic if the Lord did not have a design for me - I used to drink ALOT
49.) My parents were very strict - I thank them now
.50.) We had alot of chores - now Tucker will too
51.) I can't stand clutter - collections are clutter if its not being used
52.) I love to scrapbook and just started selling Close To My Heart (the best stuff on earth)
53.) I now love to make cards. I love to let people know I am thinking of them
54.) I love NFL - go Dallas Cowboys
55.) I've come in 2nd place three years in a row in my football pool (out of like 30 people)
56.) I HATE seafood
57.) I am a steak and potatoes kind of girl
58.) I wish I lived in the country
59.) I go to Lake Lure, NC almost every summer for vacation.
60.) I LOVE the mountains
61.) I host a crop interest based group for my church every 3rd Friday of the month
62.) I hope to win a few souls through it
63.) I have recently connected to several people from my past... I think it's so I can be a witness now that I was supposed to have been then.
64.) All my grandparents have passed on years ago
65.) I quit smoking almost 2 years ago by the grace of God - literally!
66.) My favorite food is Mexican food.
67.) I hate pecans, macadamia nuts and walnuts.
68.) I love chocolate and I crave it daily!
69.) My mother makes the best mexican food ever (it's the only thing she can cook well)
70.) I ate at El Dorados twice a day when I was pregnant w/ Tucker. He now loves mexican also
71.) I am terrible at math.
72.) I spell well (lol if I mispell it's generally typos)
73.) I love music and I love to sing.
74.) I love Janice Joplin and Melissa Etheridge. When I smoke my voice sounded like that
75.) I'm 5'6.5"
76.) I'm very average but blessed w/ a great and inviting smile (thanks God)
77.) I went to prom 4 times and hated it each time.
78.) I am pretty liberal and totally believe my way is right (I know how annoying)!
79.) I have an astigmatism and should wear glasses when I drive but I like never do!
80.) since I quit smoking my night blindess has improved by 75%!
81.) My first job was a gas station attendant. We still had one lane of full service and I pumped gas and had to deal w/ nasty people over car repair bills.
82.) I've had more boyfriends than I could possibly remember (and no that's not bragging that's a regret)
83.) I love the my child has my outgoing personality - everywhere he goes he draws attention
84.) My 41 yr old sister is a minister
85.) I have 2 uncles that are ministers
86.) I have two (at least) cousins that are ministers
87.) My favorite color is lime green and I own every type and style of shirt in that color
88.) I tan very easily and always have a natural tan all summer long
89.) I love to lift weights. It makes me feel so powerful and independant!
90.) My baby sister lives in Montanna and I HATE her being so far away from home. I miss her so terribly!
91.) I can not listen to Janice Joplin, Grateful Dead and etc anymore... it makes me want to drink and smoke and I can't ever go back there again!
92.) I love comedies. I DVR Ellen everyday because she cracks me up.
93.) I love Family Circle and Garfield comic strips
94.) I HATE HATE HATE roller coasters - I almost fell out of one as a child... my dad reached out and grabbed me and saved my life. That was at Cedar Point
95.) I hate crowds! I don't like being herded like cattle
96.) I don't have time for irrational fears (like of MRI machines, elevators, daddy long legs)
97.) I am very tell it like it is ... I try to be gentle but sometimes it just comes out but I am working on that
98.) People either hate me or love me because of it... there is no in between
99.) Wow - this wasn't that hard - I have natural curly hair and used to hate it and now I just deal with it.

There ya go! Anything else you want to know? Feel free to ask I am an open book!

2007-06-08T12:18:00.000-05:00

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!!!!
SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad it's Friday!!!
We went to the pool last night and Tim and I laid out while Tucker swam. Still too cold for me!
But the sunshine felt so wonderful!
Other than that... nothing exciting in our house. I made dinner while Tucker and Tim practiced baseball out in the yard. Remember when you were a little girl and you daydreamed about watching your family outside as you stood at the kitchen window? Well, at least I did anyways. It's so awesome to see it in real life! It was one of those moments when life felt complete.
I love summer time in my neighborhood too. Everyone outside and as you walk to the pool (at the end of my street) everyone comes out to talk. It's so great. Tim and I got to snuggle on the couch before bed and watch some TV. It was really a boring yet wonderful evening. I got creative and made a waterfall card and couple of demo scrapbook pages.
I have another party Saturday and am pretty excited about this one. Doing a whole tropical theme and going to try to spice it up and make it fun.

I just got a call from Tim. Poor Tucker and another kid collided at camp. Tucker knocked a tooth loose and busted his lip. He wanted daddy to come and get him so Tim was going to take him to get a slushy. You know, all that ice in his mouth will make it feel better! I love how dad's justify spoiling their children! hahaha!!!
No plans for this evening, which again - how nice!! Another peaceful evening w/ my family. Some pretty heavy T-storms are moving in so it'll be nice to get some rain. It's very much needed already. Also, if it storms... we all get to stay inside together and play games and hang out! Cool!!!
Hope you all have a blessed weekend.
BTW: the bleeding has almost stopped. God knew how much I can take! He's so good. So, we can say I'm pretty much done and ready to move on. Thanks again for all your prayers and support! YOU GUYS ROCK!
Love and blessings!

2007-06-07T06:26:00.000-05:00

The Lord is MY shepard! Do you know what that means? That means He guides us, He watches over us, if we got lost He'll find us, He protects us! Such BIG meaning is such a simple verse.
I thank you this morning dearest Father for being my shepard!
Things are going well for me. The Dr office called yesterday and my blood levels are at 100something. I was disappointed. I have to go again next Tuesday to have more blood drawn. I am growing weary (it feels like it's been weeks and then I realized it's only be one week today). I just want this to be finished. I want to stop cramping every evening. I sat in church last night and had to keep leaning forward and biting my lip trying to ignore the pain I felt! Please keep praying. We are studying the Holy Spirit, the Helper on Wednesday's. Understanding the Trinity, each distinct personality or purpose of the Trinity. The Holy Spirit and why He is here and the miracles that can and are still performed today by the Holy Spirit. It's got my FULL attention! I was raised in a Nazarene church so being baptized by the Holy Spirit isn't something that was ever taught to me. Now that I'm going to an Assembly of God (penecostal) church I'm enthralled with all I'm learning!
My mom came home from the hospital yesterday (forecefully I might add). She is one stubborn cookie! I guess they diagnosed the problem as Fiberticulitis (pockets in your colon) and seeds and such get stuck in these pockets and it can become very swollen and painful and apparently your colon can burst. Which is what they were afraid of. She does go back to her Dr today to be checked out and the surgeon (who was her Dr in the hosp.) next week for follow ups. She is still in pain so remember her in your prayers still. Thank you!
My card workshop - oh God is good! I started cramping and bleeding horribly on my way home from work Tuesday night but I was not going to call and cancel! Well i prayed that the big group wouldn't show and only have a couple there. WELP! Three women! That's it! The group still had to place their orders even if they don't come to the workshop, so it was very laid back, I got to sit down most of the night and I swear God is so good! The group is a group of Christian ladies that I met at the Church of Christ crop in Xenia (through a lady here at work). They are the funniest bunch of women and so fun to be around. They truly are lovers of the Lord and I feel so blessed that God has led us together. I see big things! :-)
So, that is my life in a nutshell. Our pool finally opened and Tucker went swimming for a little while last night. Too cold for me still but today is to be 91 and I might have to leave work early and hit the pool with my family. Today is Tim's day off and I could use some hubby time. I miss him terribly all week long! God has so re-newed my love and strengthend and deepend my love for my husband! This miscarriage has been a blessing as far as seeing my husband in a new light. It's also been a great testimony for those people who've known me for years. They say how are you okay and I get to say it's God! It's God that has given me peace. They walk away shaking their heads and they have to know that I'm telling the truth because they know the old bitter angry Holli. They have to know it really is God! ISN'T THAT COOL?!??!?!
Well, enjoy your Thursdays. I pray there is sunny skies where you are and I pray that the Lord meets your needs right where you are at today! If you don't know the Lord as your Savior then I pray that you will ask Him for forgiveness today because TRUST ME there is NOTHING to great for Him to handle. Nothing you could have done so wrong that you can't be forgiven and you don't have to go anywhere but on your knees and He, our great and mighty God will come to you right where you are!
Thank you LORD!

2007-06-05T11:50:00.000-05:00

Okay, my pool finally opens and now it's only 69 degrees!! What's up with that?
LOL!!
I am glad it's Tuesday. I'm nervous as all get out about my workshop tonight and I pray that it all goes well! I know that 3 of the 10 women won't be there for sure so I'm glad for that. That way the less people that I have to help on first try! I can't believe I'm going to stand in front of 7 women and teach them how to makes cards and show them a new design. When! I just started and they've been doing it for years. That's where the prayer for confindence comes in. You know the verse... I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me! And strength comes in my joy! And I am celebrating in Him.
I had a neighbor come over last night, she asked "Are you sure you are really ok? I miscarried once and I pretended to be okay to people but inside I was dying." I said yes, I really am okay. The Lord has brought me peace. I'm ready for this to be done so I can move on. I said I really feel as the though the Lord prepared my heart for this as soon as I needed Him too. I said I also prayed that it would happen quickly and virtually pain free. And BOY! Did he ever answer!
I went today to have my blood drawn and the guy (who hurt me by the way) said he'd probably see me next week and I said Nope! My levels will be less than 10 today. I am so confident in what the Lord is doing I know that the miscarriage is done and complete and my body is already healing! I feel it! Do you know what it feels like when God is healing your body? Have you ever felt the powerful difference? It's unexplainable - but I can really feel something different. I'm sure alot of it has to do with the absolute pure peace in my heart.
So - enough about that!
Tucker had his first day of Daycamp yesterday. His counsler is a college kid named Zach who Tucker said was the coolest ever! I am so glad! I really think he'll have an absolute blast this summer at the camp. Sounds like they do so much fun stuff everyday and keep the kids really busy all day long!
I gave him his mohawk (I thought of you Jeff) on Friday and everywhere he goes he wants attention for it! What was really hysterical to me... this morning dropping him off, there were 3 boys (including TK) that had mohawks! His was the coolest of course (in mom's opinion). His was the only one that was gelled and spiked on top. He asked (OKAY GET THIS) to have his belly button pierced or the thing between your nostrils 0 he wanted to look like a bull!!!!!
WHERE WHERE WHERE DID MY 6 YEAR OLD CHILD SEE THIS?!?!??!?!?!?!
Dad and I both VERY QUICKLY said OH NO! Absolutely not!! Not until you are 18 AND out of our house. I never thought I'd have to say that. It was a sad moment for me. LOL!
I really need to read his Keys for Kids to him more often! Study his Sunday School lessons more often. Okay, what I really need to do is start praying for wisdom and that his desires to be different will become a desire to be different and serve the Lord not the world!
So, anyways... I better get back to work!
Praying for you all and that the Lord will meet your needs whatever they may be.
Oh! And please pray for my mom. She's in the hospital w/ severe side pain and had an ultrasound this morning, and has talked to surgeons. They think it could be appendix. So keep her in your prayers please.
And I thank each of you for your prayers and loving support. As you can see God is good and He answers prayers!

2007-06-04T11:35:00.000-05:00

Hello all! I had a nice long post started... then had to leave my desk... came back and closed out of IE (I had it minimized) and did not click the return to post list link...eeerrrr!!!
Basically - had a nice weekend. My hubby kept me home Friday - I think he wanted to keep me close so he could keep an eye on me. He landscaped and it is beautiful! It looks better than the yards that were professionally done. I'm so proud of him and how hard he works!
Friday night I started cramping really bad, I felt like I was going to throw up! I finally took a darvocet and it made me fall asleep. I felt better Saturday. We had a cookout for Tim's birthday and I had a graduation party to go to. The cookout was nice and relaxing. We invited a couple of the neighbors and got to know them a little better and had a good time. Sunday went to church and laid around the house. Took a nap which is always a bonus! Started cramping again last night. Then today felt better. Took a 2.75 mile walk at lunch and started cramping during the walk. I'll really be glad when this is done. I am grateful to God that is happend so quickly and that I didn't have to wait days or weeks for it to start! I am grateful to God for the peace that He has filled me with and that positive outlook and attitude that He has surely blessed me with! I couldn't do this without my Lord and Savior!
I thank you ALL for your prayers. For they have made the difference! The Lord heard our cries and has answered. Praise Him today for the good things He has done!
I called the Dr office this morning to talk about things. I have to go have another blood test tomorrow to see where my levels are. Anything under 10 is considered not pregnant and that means my body has shed it all - so that's the prayer for the day. That it will be less than 10 so I won't have to have anymore tests! :-)
My first card workshop is tomorrow night! This is a group of ladies who decided they want to spend $15 a month for the next 10 months (that way each lady gets to be hostess once) and we'll get together once a month and do a card workshop and a couple of scrapbook layouts. I'm nervous as this is my first workshop. I have everything ready (I hope)! Now it's just how to get it started and teach?! Well, again , I'll trust God for it. He brought me this business and he brought me these Christian women and so I'll trust Him that He'll bring me a nice, relaxed atmosphere and self confidence! :-) I have a home gathering on Saturday and am hoping to get a gathering booked from it. I had a neighbor say she wants to have a party so I'll pray that God is behind each one of these! He truly is so good to me!
I've never been very creative but the Lord has brought such awesome ideas to me recently!
Well... don't forget to check out my website every so often. www.scrapping4u.myctmh.com
That is the only place you can get discount items. I even order from my website for those because even though I'm a Close to My Heart consultant I can't see deals except through our websites. Good discounts out there!
Okay, so that was my plug for the day.
Enjoy your Monday!!! I love you all and mostly I love the Lord!!! YEAH!!

2007-05-31T09:52:00.000-05:00

* this may be more info than you want to know...

I started bleeding this morning. Here at work. Nothing terrible and not alot of cramping. Just like a very mild period so far. I know it will get heavier before it gets lighter but I hope the cramps stay like they are.
I have to say...even though this is horrible news God is good. My church prayed for me last night and all of you have been praying for me. The prayers I requested was that this happen quickly and painfree. Let me tell you, when God answers He answers! This is quick. The Dr said it could happen in a week it could happen in a month. It happened in a matter of days. Thank you God for your swiftness. Thank you for having mercy on my suffering. Thank you for your saving Grace.
I really am okay. I'm not depressed. I'm not down. I am praising God through this and thanking Him for the opportunity that this has presented to talk to my husband. To see how wonderful and supportive my husband really is. The opportunity to talk to my child, a serious pretty adult conversation, and see how mature and grown up he really is. What a blessing this has all been.
I also know with all confidence that I will conceive again and it will live and be healthy.
I heard a song yesterday and it said something about praying my child into heaven. Isn't it funny how God sends us words? My daily word yesterday was Psalm 18:1. I love you Lord, You are my strength. Also Exodus 15:2.
He truly is my rock!
How grateful I am for you Lord!!! Just like the song... I have in my life... proved him o'er and o'er!! My life is a testimony to Him and I want to shout it from the street side! GOD SAVED MY LIFE AND HE CAN SAVE YOURS TOO!!!

2007-05-30T11:28:00.000-05:00

I went to have another ultrasound yesterday and the baby was smaller than it was a week ago and it should have tripled in size. So, my body is going to miscarry. I had to have a blood test done which will check my hormone levels and then I'll go again next week and see if they dropped (which in all reality they will have). The dr couldn't give me a time frame but I am guessing within a month I will have miscarried and it'll be done. I was (obviously) upset yesterday but I am okay today. I know that God has a perfect plan and I am trusting Him for it. Tim is being very supportive and he was pretty upset yesterday also. We both agree that once I'm healthy we'll try again. The hardest thing in all of this will be to tell Tucker. He's so very excited it's going to suck! That and just having to tell this story over and over to all the people who know. Next time… we'll wait to tell Tucker (because he's the one who blabbed to everyone he saw)! So anyways… please pray that this happens quickly and with little or no pain. I just want to get it over with and not carry this non-growing baby in my body for a month! I just want this to be done and over so we can move on. I praise God that this happened now and not later and I also praise Him because now Tim is ready and prepared for another one and this has brought us closer. God is good!
I fully trust the Lord and His plan for my life. Father God, I come to you right now and I give you glory and honor. Lord you see the things that I can not see and can not yet understand but I fully trust You and know that Your will is perfect. I give you praise Lord, I rejoice Lord, my heart is full of joy. I prayed yesterday to you Father that you would comfort me and strengthen me and of course You did not fail. I have such a peace in my heart Lord and that is the peace that passes all understanding. How can I be at peace in such a hurtful time? Because I love You Father! Because you are my Comforter! Father God I pray that you will touch my body, that it will recover quickly, that it will be pain free, that it will conceive another healthy child in your perfect time. Lord please continue to bless our family and bring us closer through this. Lord I pray for your words to tell Tucker. I pray that you will touch his precious little heart and help him to understand such a painful, grown-up situation. Lord, please be Tucker's comforter as you are mine. Be Tim's comforter Father. I give you thanks for these things Lord. I know that Your hand is in our lives and the healing has already begun. Praise you Lord!
Amen
The enemy can not have me... for the victory is the Lords!

2007-05-25T06:31:00.000-05:00

Things my husband says:

I can't have my fat pregnant wife and baby driving around w/o AC in the car - translation:
I have to use the word fat because I don't want her to think I really care but yet I really do!

How's my pregnant *ss wife feeling today - translation: If I use a swear word it'll make me sound tough and like I don't care however, I really do care how she's feeling!

He came up behind me and was rubbing my belly and I chuckled. He said What - I said I think it's cute that you are rubbing baby. He gufawed (is that a word) and walked away like he wasn't doing anything.
Men - so funny, so predictable! We love them because we feel sorry for them! HAHA (I AM only kidding)!
He was so upset about baby at first but now he's getting so excited, it is so precious to hear the love and concern in his undertone. He's such a hard outershell man but really inside there is this softness. And when he comes to serve the Lord it will really show through. Then his true strength and power will come out in his gentleness! I trust the Lord for it today and everyday!
I'm wearing maternity clothes today. My jeans don't fit anymore. Do you know how devastating that is ... AT SIX WEEKS PREGERS!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, I look cute! HAHA! Hope you all have a blessed weekend. I pray that you truly celebrate our Lord and savior all weekend. Dance around your house to praise music and turn your face to heaven and let Him see the glory in your face that He put there!
Love and peace to you all!

2007-05-24T13:05:00.000-05:00

A quick note: GOD IS GOOD!
I had one more thing that hadn't cleared and I had a farewell luncheon I was going to have to miss today... but God provided EXACTLY the amount I needed to cover them both.
Thank you Jesus for always being here and for always providing my needs according to your perfect will!

2007-05-24T08:21:00.000-05:00

Hi baby! You are definately growing because I am growing! So, I know you need to grow and I of course want you to grow but could you find room somewhere inside where it's not pushing so much on the outside? I do believe this will be my last week in normal pants. Even my low riders are uncomfortable when sitting down. I had to wear maternity shorts and top to Tucker's ball practice last night because I have no shorts to fit me. Today things are definately moving and growing because my belly hurts and its already starting to harden up across the top. Well, you didn't waste any time did ya?! Well, I guess I might as well get used to it now... I just really thought I'd have another month or so before this happened. Your brother was pushing on my belly yesterday singing you got a chubby belly mommy! Oh how comforting that was! NOT!
I did go home and catch a 20 min nap before he got home from school. You are making me sleepy with all the growing you are doing - BUT don't stop okay?!

So... girls... pray for me finacially please! I screwed two of my 3 accounts up royally (don't ask me how as I check online almost everyday). But it's bad... like $170 bad! I know it's my fault as I'm the one who does the bills. I got lazy for one thing and didn't check the joint account book against the online statement. I thought I had more money in there than what was in there. Then of course... I have $120 budgeted for gas... well I'm spending $171! Somethings gotta give on these gas prices. I don't have any money in the budget to shift around to cover it. So, I'm taking money from my business account to cover my personal account and praise the Lord tomorrow is payday so I can cover it all tomorrow EXCEPT that it's going to make me short then the next week for bills. So... I need the Lord to bless me finacially to cover my stupidity!
I know we've all been here and we've all done it but now I'm trying not to worry about it since there is nothing I can do to cover it but it still has my stomach in knots (which baby was doing just fine on it's own).
So anyways... that's my drama. Tucker has his first game tonight and he's so excited because Papa Bert is coming and it's daddy's day off so he'll have a fan base for his first game! LOL!
Church was so awesome last night. We've started this small 10 chapter book on the Miraculous something or other (I know how lame am I) it's about the Holy Spirit and how and why He was sent to us as our helper and how to receive Him. I'm very excited about this new study. I'm hoping to learn alot. Our pastor is so intuned and so led by the Holy Spirit it's so fabulous! We somehow got on to forgiveness and I just left a msg on someone blog yesterday about how amazingly free I am and it finally dawned on me that I am forgiven! The Lord also pointed out some scripture to me that I am going to read over the baby after it's born. It was in I John 3 but I don't have my bible right here with so I can't tell you what verse it was. Anyways, I just know, the Lord has filled me with the knowledge that this child will be my peaceful child, that this child is going to be knowledgable in and live the Word. Of course it is my job as a parent to fill the childs atmosphere with the Word and teach it to pray and teach it to praise. So those are my ramblings for the day...
Have a peaceful Thursday. I can't wait for tomorrow to get here!

2007-05-23T08:19:00.000-05:00

Good Wednesday morning world!! Isn't it a glorious day? The sun is shining, it's going to warm all day and we are half way through the week (which is a good thing since I thought yesterday was Thursday)!!! Something else someone pointed out to me, it's a 3 day weekend! I've been so lost in the clouds that I forgot it was a holiday weekend! YAAA the pools open! Can't wait to start swimming.
I went yesterday to Once Upon a Child and got some more maternity clothes. A pair of jeans, a dress, and about 5 tops for $40! Can't beat that. My friend Tif bought me two tops and a Fit Mama DVD. She said if I was going to hang with her while pregnant I had to be a hot mama! LOL! She's my fashion diva!
The Dr office called yesterday afternoon and I have another ultrasound Tuesday morning since we didn't see the heartbeat yet. Please pray. I started to worry than said NOPE! My God is not a God of fear or worry. So, I praise Him instead for a Dr that is caring and wants to be fully aware of what's going on with my unique situation! I trust God. The Lord is just, He is my rock, there is nothing but goodness in Him Psalm 92:15!
I found some amazing websites lately. I don't know how to create links on the side. I always try and it never works. So they are: http://crownlaiddown.blogspot.com/ so amazing the wisdom of this Holly Smith. And http://leighhargisgray.blogspot.com/ she is so inspirational and this one http://flibbertigibberish.blogspot.com/ she seems so very sweet and mild. The total opposite of me. Sometimes I wish I could be more like that than I remember that God made me bold for a reason. He made me loud so I could be heard. LOL! Tucker had a rough day yesterday pray for a better day today please!
I'm getting ready to go for a walk and get some excercise in! I've put on 3 lbs!! GEESH!
Tonight is T-ball practice and I have to go to the dreaded walmart to get some flips flops for Tucker and some food for him to take to school for a party they have tomorrow!
Welp, that's my story... not exciting but that's it.
I did have my first bout of " I just need to close my eyes for a second" yesterday. After the 20 min nap I felt better! Love and prayers to you all!

2007-05-21T12:55:00.000-05:00

Hello Tadpol-ette (hehe). Well, mommy just saw you on the screen. I had my first ultrasound today and there you were. Just a blip on the screen. A dot. A peanut a whole 2.23 m long. Amazingly enough, in exactly one week from today you will be 6 something m long! You have little arm and leg buds (which we couldn't see) and they will start moving around this week. You heart is there and dividing into two chambers this week but again we just couldn't see it today. We could see that there was blood flowing around you and that was good. We now know that I am pregnant in my left cervix. That's a first. I was pregnant in my right cervix the other two pregnancies. So, I have spoken that my left side is my strong side! I'm trusting God for an amazingly healthy pregnancy this time. He is good and He answers and I will accept His answer as His perfect will for my life. No matter what that answer may be. I am so excited. I have another appt next Tuesday to talk to the Dr about the game plan this time. I pray that it's good news. I still feel great! No sickness. Food totally agrees with me so far. Garlic leaves me with tons of indigestion. I'm not totally worn out yet either. I'm waiting for that to kick in. With me being home alone with Tucker most of the time I'm praying he'll let me take cat naps when I need them. I'm already popping out. I weighed myself this morning and you've put on three pounds already! (yes all the weight gain will be you not me). hehe! What's so bad about that is I've been eating really clean. I haven't had any junk food! But I guess it's to be expected and I'm not going to get worked up about it.
I'm going to my friend Em's house tomorrow to get some clothes. She just had Lola and I can't wait to see her! I do hope you and Lola will be great friends!
Well sweet baby mommy will write to you later! I love you.

so, for those of you who don't know... I was born with two cervix and one kidney. I've been told I have one uterus split in 1/2 and I've been told I have two seperate uteri. Honestly I don't think anyone knows for sure. When I graduated I was pregnant and lost the baby at 5 months and that's how we found out about the two seperate cervix. This is the first time being pregnant on the left side. So, pray that this will make the difference and be a strong pregnancy!
I had a fabulous weekend! Friday night, Tucker had ball practice and did great at 1st base. Then I went to do my scrapbook thing and had a good time. Saturday morning I laid around and enjoyed the quiet morning. Then I made a HUGE breakfast for Tucker. Bacon, scrambled eggs, toast, stawberries and pancakes. NO... I did not eat the pancakes (that would explain 3lbs if I did)! Saturday evening Tim took us to dinner at a great new mediterranian rest. and to see Shrek 3. That was a cute movie if you like Shrek. We got a huge kick out of it! Sunday was church and an all day birthday party. It was a sunny warm beautiful day and we had a great time. But last night... I felt pregnant! My feet were swollen and I was exhausted! I curled up in the recliner with a glass of OJ and didn't move for two hours! Anyone watch Desperate Housewives? OMG!! Didn't see the ending coming did you??? Surely they'll bring her back?!
Well, that's all I have to say today...
Happy Monday!
And to the praying world - pray for Josh and his entire family. He truly needs the miracle of God's healing in his life. And GOD CAN DO IT! Through the power of the Holy Spirit Josh can be free from his drug addictions and be healed and I trust the Lord for it!

2007-05-18T06:19:00.000-05:00

My heart does flip flops in my chest when I start thinking to much. I get so nervous. I want everything to be so perfect for you. I am so afraid Tadpole of doing something to hurt you. I know how silly it is, I know you are so very protected in there but I think it's a natural fear that all mommy's feel. Especially since my pregnancies are so very hard. I am trusting God for you. I am trusting Him for a healthy pregnancy and safe and not having to be on bedrest the whole time this time. He is good! I can't wait to start taking you to church. I pray over you already , I can't wait to teach you to pray. Your big brother and I pray together every night and he requests that I pray for you every night. He lays his hands on you in my tummy and he says hello to you and that he loves you. Oh my little tadpole you have no idea how mommy's heart melts! I can't imagine how it will be to have both of you in my arms. I can't imagine being any more blessed! I'm trying to feed you really well. I don't want to gain to much weight so I am eating healthy. Boiled egg, whole wheat toast, cantelope for breakfast, light yogurt snack, Healthy choice 300 cal or less plus a side of vegies for lunch, apple for snack, 3 oz of meat, 2 helpings of vegies and/or a spinach salad for dinner. Usually some reduced fat crackers in there somewhere too. I'm hoping I'm feeding you enough! I take my vitamins everyday and am still exercising to keep that blood and oxygen pumping to you. I'm going to talk to you alot out here because I'm trying not to bore everyone in the real world with all the pregnancy talk. I don't want them to roll their eyes everytime I say something! haha! I only feel sick one time a day and I have been able to breath through it and I think that I may be eating to fast when I feel like that so I am trying to slow down. Habit - to wolf my food down like it's going out of style! haha!
Well tadpole... that's it for today. I'm going to go look for some maternity clothes today. My belly is starting to poke out. Daddy was laughing at me last night because my tank top kept raising up over my belly and my sweatpants kept riding down under my belly so there was a couple of inches showing. Oh well, guess I can't hide it forever!

Aaahh..it's Friday. The week has been pretty uneventful since Tucker is better. We cleaned house last night and Tucker and I snuggled in his bed and talked about school. I got some scrapbooking done, I made a little brag n tag book for Dad for Father's day of his retirement party. I'll post pics one of these days of it. I made a pork roast last night (I think bob evans) it's microwavable like 7 min and it's done! OMG they are so good, comes w/ gravy. Microwavable mashed potatoes (country crock) again so good! So easy and that's what I'm all about! haha
Tk has T-ball practice tonight and I have my scrapbook interest based group (IBG) at church. I have lots to do so it'll be nice to get away from the house for a few hours and get it all done w/ no interuptions! I used to have the IBG at my house but we 1.) outgrew the place and 2.) my husband said that was to much estrogen in his house. HAHA! So we are at the church now.
Saturday I believe we are taking Tk to see Shrek 3. There are so many good movies coming out! Started w/ Spidey 3, now Shrek 3 and then Fantastic 4 - 2 ... I'll be spending money at the theater this summer!
Well, I guess I've made this like WAY long. Sorry! Happy Friday and have a truly blessed weekend! And Neicey - you'll find the church just listen to God. Kris- yes I was not a fan of Devil wears Prada either.

2007-05-16T13:10:00.000-05:00

Hello punkin' seed - guess I should change your name to tadpole now.
I can't wait until Monday. I get to see my first picture of you and of your beating heart. I know I'm going to cry tears of joy of course.
Daddy said last night he just wants you to be healthy, me too. Bubby doesn't care if your a boy or girl either we are all looking forward to loving you.
You now have a brain and heart and in the next couple of weeks will start growing your limbs.
I ate peas for you yesterday and today. Hope you liked them ' cause mommy sure doesn't.
You kept me up awful late last night, you must already have a head full of hair if the old wives tail is true. hahaha! Sounds like Tums will be mommy's new best friend.
I can't wait to feel you start moving. I have a couple of months yet. You just have no idea how much you are wanted and loved already. Actually you probably do because I truly believe all children are in heaven and hand pick their parents. I love you little tadpole. See you Monday!

Tucker is feeling better and recovering from strep throat. I enjoyed the two days off, I got lots done. Other than that not really much to post about. T-ball practice tonight and that's it!
Hope this finds you all well and happy!
Love and blessings to you all.

2007-05-14T06:44:00.000-05:00

Good morning world.
It's Monday.
I'm feeling a little Garfield-ish today.
Tucker is sick - fever and sore throat. I got to work at 5:45am (did anyone know this time of day existed)? I have my first Dr appt at 8:50 and then I have to go home and get my sick kid to the Dr.
We painted (I should day my hubby and my dad) the whole interior of the house. I did my bathroom Saturday. It was a lot of work. Saturday evening my first downline had her "Jump Start" party (CTMH) and it went well. I enjoyed being there and answering questions and helping her out. She's going to be great!
Yesterday Tim and Tucker took me to breakfast and then I went to visit mom and that was my day. I laid around and read. Great day!
To my unborn child:
I'm nervous, I really want this pregnancy to be healthy. I don't want to be on bedrest this time. I also don't want to be sick. I never was with Tucker and I'm feeling a little nauseous right now so if you could kindly stop that it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance.
My boobs are growing at a rate of speed unknown to mankind. Daddy saw me get out of the shower the other day and said "Oh wow, you are already starting to show"! I sucked my belly in really fast and said "No I'm not"! LOL! But yes, he's right. Looks like I'll be in maternity clothes before I know it. They say you get bigger with your second one. Geesh!
Bubby is still so excited. He tells everyone he sees that you are on your way. I told Mimi about you yesterday (part of her mothers day) and she was very excited! Also, Grandma and Grandpa Smith were thrilled. You should have heard the excitement in their voices!
Right now, your devoloping so very fast. I'm sure all the sugar and fat that I had at Bob Evans' wasn't good but hey... it was my present to myself! haha! Your brain is developing and your heart is almost done. In about 4 weeks I'll be able to hear your heart beating. It'll all seem so much more real at that point. I can't wait!
Daddy was on the internet looking at nursery's last night. Trying to come up with the perfect room for you. See, I told you he was really a softie. He started asking questions about my pregnancy, when would I get sick (I said I wouldn't so remember that ok).
Mommy loves you punkin' seed!

2007-05-10T08:51:00.000-05:00

My blog will be going on a new path...

A JOURNAL TO MY UNBORN BABY:

Hi baby... I am so excited!! I am now 5 weeks along, you will be due right around your big brothers birthday. He thinks you will be the best birthday present ever. When bubby found out I was pregnant he said "YES, FINALLY"! He also ran into church last night and annouced (to the entire church before I could get in there) My mommy is pregnant and she JUST got pregnant TODAY! Oh, little one, your big brother is so very excited for you to get here already. He's already laying his hands on my tummy asking is it growing yet, is your tummy going to get big today, he laid in bed last night talking to you.. did you hear him? No not yet your ears haven't formed yet but I know you feel our love from your cozy little home. He was saying Hi cutie, Hi cutie little baby. He already promises to share his toys and my time and carry all poopy diapers to the trash! He's so very funny. What a lucky mommy I am to have him and now to have you! I know you will be a child of peace that our lives will be forever blessed for knowing you. I already have your name picked out if you are a girl... I had them picked from the bible and decided to look them up... peace and peace and quiet is what they mean and a light in the dark. Boy will you ever be! So, you are developing your brain and your heart right now. I'm eating lots of vegies and protien so you can grow to be strong and smart! Your father is very smart so I know you will be too! I pray that you have your daddies looks (if you are a girl). Your daddy has your name picked out if you are a boy. He has had it picked out for years. He's scared... he won't really say it but I know he is. He's afraid of how very much he's going to love you and of being wrapped around all 10 fingers and toes! He's a big softie in a big metal shell.
My heart is soaring and I am so excited. Of course I am scrared too, this is new and different and lets face it, it's been a long time since I've had a baby around. But I know that God will work it all out. He's good like that, He always provides and keeps us! I trust Him and one day... you will too. There are lots of people already looking forward to meeting you!
Mommy already loves you tons!

2007-05-08T08:17:00.000-05:00

A love story:

My friend Chris's first love Brandyn. She loved him since she was 14 years old. Her first everything. They were together a couple of times throughout high school but never officially dated. He was a typical high school boy take what he could get and go. She's loved him all these years. She dated a guy her Jr year in HS got pregnant, was terribly sick and had to quit school. They married, he joined the military and they moved. She was so unhappy. Her mom passed away when Chris was like 19-20. She had a pretty hard life, no father around her mom had MS and they didn't have much money. But you would never know it. She always had a smile on her face, love in her heart for people, an easy giggle (that she still has now). Well, the guy she married was a young skateboarder party punk. They divorced. Now a single mom, she did meet a nice guy. (I actually worked with him for a short time). He came from money. They dated, got married, and eventually the father gave up rights and the hubby J adopted her little girl. She was almost 2 years old when Chris and J got together. He started his own business they lived in a nice town and had a nice house, had money. His office was above the garage and he taught her alot of things that as a girl she didn't know. She is loyal. She loves to love people. Well, J was OCD and was pretty hard to live with but she was still happy and in love. 16 years of being together, he started getting mean, and things started changing. Well, finally she decided she had to leave. Come to find out, he was doing cocaine and lost alot of money and business. So, she moved in with her sister and her sisters kids. Well, she started dating someone else after a few months alone. A nice enough guy but had lots of baggage. Then... one day... from classmates.com she gets an email. FROM BRANDYN!!!! Says, hey what have you been up to. He lives in NC is divorced, 2 kids, a good steady job. Well, his father just passed away from cancer so when he came up he made arrangements to see Chris. Said he always regreted not giving her a chance and apologized for the way he treated her in HS. So.... now after spending the week together she will be going to NC in June and in July. My guess is she'll be moving there by August. They have already discussed what the wedding plans will be!

I am so happy for her... in all the years I've known her she has mentioned his name at least once in every conversation. He truly is the love of her life! This is the stuff dreams are made of!

Can we say hey Lifetime... here's a movie for ya'?! The total happily ever after movie package right here! CONGRATS CHRIS & BRANDYN for FINALLY finding each other and true love!

2007-05-07T10:32:00.000-05:00

I love weekends, I really do. I love Mondays at work too because I get to REST!
No really, I had a super weekend just really busy!
Friday, Tucker had T-ball practice, his first one of the season. Let me just say I AM SO PROUD! He did such a great job. He played first base and people were saying man, he's got a great arm on him. He tried very hard to catch the ball, he tagged a couple of the kids out, he paid attention, he hustled, we never once had to say Tucker stop that, Tucker pay attention I was beginning to wonder who's kid was out there! He loved it and he was great at it! Then... we straight from there to see Spiderman 3. Tucker loved it, he covered his eyes at the kissing scenes and said ooooo tell me when it's over. HAHAHA!! That was hysterical. He loved to movie, he loved the sandman, he loved venom and over all it's his new favorite movie. He's 6.
Now, my opinion, 1 and 2 were way better. Like the scene were spidey sense kicks in and he jumps on Mary Jane before Doc Oc crashes through the glass of the resturant... love that scene. This movie was just ok. A little long and I didn't really like what the did to Parker character making him cocky and all (even before the alter ego). Anways, would I pay to see it again, it is better to see some of the action (with New Goblin) on big screen but no I personally wouldn't pay to see it again. Now ask Tucker, he'd say YEAH!!
Saturday I got up at 7am and started cleaning immediatley! Then I prepared food for the Silpalda jewelry party I was having (in which TWO people showed). Then I cleaned up from it. Tucker fell asleep so I got dishes done and put away and I actually got to paint my nails! Something I've been wanting to do for the past month!
Sunday, church and a surpise b-day dinner for the pastors wife imed. following, had to leave there rush home change clothes and run to my upline (CTMH supervisor person) house and she showed me all kinds of new techniques and card workshop ideas. Got home, kid fell asleep again (must be a growth spurt) and I went out and mowed part of the backyard that still had grass. Then I folded clothes and then I worked on some scrapbook stuff while I watched Desperate Housewives. So shew... I'm tired!
I've got a meeting at 6 tonight, swim at 6:30 ball practice tomorrow church on Wed. and start painting my house Thursday and Friday and Satu and Sund. GEESH!! Will it ever end?!?!
Holy canoly!
And my dear husband has been so sweet lately. You can tell we both really miss each other.
I really enjoy hm having Fridays' off but we haven't got to enjoy it yet really. Always something going on!
Hope you all had a fabulous weekend!!!

2007-05-04T08:19:00.000-05:00

Okay, so P was talking about forgiveness on her blog... let me tell you about the revelation I had at women of faith.

Sandy Patti... I guess several years ago had an affair... here she was singing about Christ's love, preaching it to people and having an affair while doing it! I thought... Lord, if she can fall someone who is living your word everyday, if she can fall WHAT MAKES ME THINK I'M EXEMPT?! If she can fall (this fine upstanding christian lady) than SURELY I too will fall daily. It all just clicked to me, it all just made sense to me, and if she could be forgiven for singing his praises while sinning then I could be forgiven! It was the most amazing freedom I have ever felt! Funny, because the title of the conference was amazing freedom. And you know what, I was changed, I was healed from a thought that the Lord gave me. It wasn't something she or any one else said. It was a word from the Lord planted into my heart and mind. I know I am forgiven! I know I am loved! And I also know that the Lord uses me! I also know that the Lord will use my experiences of sin as a testimony to His greatness!

If we are obedient to the Lord He will open the windows of blessings and pour out onto us and He also moves us to another level in our relationship with Him. I don't know alot of scripture by heart... but I do know Psalm 30:5 we will cry tears at night but our joy will come in the morning. Trust in the Lord put your full faith in Him and HE WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN!

Okay, so now onto the mundane of life...

I went to the ENT with my xrays (finally)! I have to have surgery. The passageway between my nose and into my cheeks is completely blocked and full of polups (sp?). So, he's going to go in and recontruct those passageways. I am pushing the surgery back to the fall when I will have some more vacation time. I will have to be off work for a week. Then after surgery I will still have to see an allergist. Geesh... I so didn't see this coming. I'm not upset or worried or anything, just bummed about having to be in terrible pain for a week AND because I'm going to have to rely on people to help me do things and I HATE to rely on anyone because I have such high expectations I'm usually disappointed. That would be the perfectionist in me.

My dad brought up my kitchen island that he built for me. OMG!! It is so beautiful! He did such an amazing job. He's so awesome. I just love him! It's a truly beautiful piece of furniture. I'll try to post a couple of pics of it but you have to know... it does not do it justice!

He made the spice rack on the side and that papertowel holder on the side, can you imagine being able to look at a block of wood and making that out of it? I sure can't!

Anyways... happy Friday and happy Spiderman 3 day. My son will probably pee himself in excitement before the day is up! LOL!!

2007-05-01T13:38:00.000-05:00

AAAHH!! I finally have a minute to post. I'll try to make this quick!
OMG!! What a great weekend!
First - Friday shopping all day... Penny's had buy one get one .88 sale!!!!!! So I spent $36.00 for a pair of jeans and got the 2nd for .88!!! You can't beat that... oh it was so much fun! I got a ton of stuff and had a blast shopping and drinking Starbucks new Dulce De Leche frappachino! YUMMY!
Max Lucado was amazing, simple and on point and he didn't seem intimidated by the 18 THOUSAND women he was surrounded by. Yep you read right - 18,000 women all in one little corner of the world. Oh my goodness... it was madness! Sandy Patty - geesh incredcible! Here she was singing to little ol' us and she was singing at Carnegie Hall today! She's great. There is a comedian Anita Renfroe - HELLO! Can you say hysterical? We ALL had tears in our eyes, our sides hurt and our jaws hurt from laughing. I am going to buy some of her DVDs and even if you aren't a Christian... I suggest her... she's a great comedian! Luci Swindoll insightful, Marilyn Teberg amazing and free, Sheila Walsh straight to the heart, and Patsy Clairmont a spitfire!
What a great time! I was so glad to get home and go to bed though! I was exhausted!
Now today, I have my first CTMH party amongst strangers. I'm nervous but I know it'll be just fine as the product sells itself. But still say a little prayer for me. Thanks!
My hubby missed me terribly! (yeah)! I finally saw him Sunday after church and he said come here and gave me a huge hug! That is very unlike my husband! I was so excited and felt so welcomed it was very nice. It was nice to know that I was missed. It was also nice to have a whole weekend where I never spoke to him or my child. It was truly a real break! I think it was good for Tim and I as we realized - hey we do love and need each other! LOL!
Welp, that's all for now.
Hope this finds you all having a great Tuesday! SPIDERMAN -3 OPENS FRIDAY!!! We are SOOOO going!!! Tucker came home from school and announced "Well mom today is the day of April" I said "yep". He said " You know what that means don't you? Only 5 more days!" And I said "AHA! until Spiderman-3"! And we both jumped up and down and were so excited! LOL!
I love his age, I love who he is. I LOVE these celebrations of the little things! He's so awesome!

2007-04-26T12:11:00.000-05:00

WOMEN OF FAITH.... HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I get off work today and go home to do laundry, pack, and water my plants (because my hubby won't remember to do it Saturday). Then I am off tomorrow at 7:30 am. So, I won't be posting until Monday. I pray that Monday I will still be on my "spiritual high". I am totally psyched!
Last night - service was awesome. Wednesdays are very casual and usually more of a bible study but we talked about the 'baptism in the Holy Spirit' and tongues and such. It really was an awesome service!
I looked at my sales to date (since April 7th) and I've sold $1,057 worth of product!!!! HOW EXCITING is that?! I've almost made my 90 day goal in 30 days! How good is our God?!
And my diet? Well, I've been really good, I ate a salad today for lunch... so that I could eat dessert! LOL! Brownie obsession... oooo boy.... I've been eating so clean my system is on a sugar overload at this very moment! My clothes are fitting better and I definately see definition and shape coming back to my body. I got a HUGE (backwards) compliment from my hubby. He called and said "You want to win $1000?" I said okay yea, he said I want to enter you into a MILF (mother I'd like screw) contest. LOL!! So, my husband thinks I'm sexy enough to enter a contest like that... I was thrilled! I felt so cool after that! hahahaha !
Well you all have a fabulous weekend!!!

2007-04-25T13:45:00.000-05:00

This day I confide in God and remain confident that He who has helped me before will do so again.

Today has been another good day. Nothing to report... business is booming.
You are all in my prayers!
Peace and Love

2007-04-24T07:01:00.000-05:00

Good morning. Sorry I didn't post yesterday... I was so busy and had (still have) so much on my mind.
Well let's start with the happy part of the weekend... that would be Saturday. I had the all day crop that a friend from the gym invited me to set up at. Well on Friday I was in a bit of a panic because no one has booked any parties or workshops and I was saying that Saturday was my last planned event as far as my business goes and I didn't know what to do next! Well on the way to the crop Sat morning I prayed... and I wasn't there an hour and someone booked a party! Is God good or what! So he answered my prayer and he did it quickly so I was able to enjoy my day. I got alot of pages done, several cards made and just really enjoyed the ladies. It was a beautiful day so only 6 of us were there. I guess there is usually 20 or so! But it gets better! By the end of the day, the ladies want to do a monthly workshop at $15 per person and I will have a project ready for them to do. They want to make cards so every month I'll prepare a new workshop and make alot of cards. I am SOOOO excited! How blessed am I?!
After the crop and I got home I had alot of laundry to get caught up on and had to get everything put away and I had to place some orders. So I was EXHAUSTED! I skipped church Sunday morning and laid around and relaxed. My mom came up at 1:00 for us to color each others hair and then I had to take Tucker to yet another b-day party (he had one Saturday also that daddy dropped him off at) and that was at the park. We got home about 7:30 and it was bathtime, bedtime and Desperate Housewives time for mom! HAHA! I just LOVE that show!
So.... here's the bad part of my weekend... Friday night Tim and I were outside watering the lawn and just doing some work and such... Tucker went 3 houses down and was playing w. a little girl that's in his class. Her grandma was there watching them. They were all the front porch and Tucker had taken his new book set down and they were looking at it... well!

Something very disturbing happened Friday evening. We had an issue with the mom (remember me saying in the beginning of the school year let's have Tucker talk to the counsler before some crazy parent pressed sexual harasment charges? Well, she'll be the lunatic parent that does it!) Here’s what happened… Tucker was down on the front porch playing (Tim and I were outside out front) and apparently Tucker kissed and hugged the girl. Well I hear the mom screaming at him (3 houses down). She said "Get out of here, your not a normal little boy, I don't care mom (apparently her mother told her to be quiet) that's not normal to hug and kiss on your friends now get out of here!" I sent my husband down and he asked is everything ok and the mom says yes everything's fine (in a very sweet tone) I went marching down there and said OH NO IT'S NOT! I heard what you said to my child! She's in the garage with a rag wiping the girls face off (rubbing it over and over where Tucker had kissed her). She tells me … (her exact words) "Tucker almost ruined her life the first three weeks of school, she came home crying everyday because she didn't like him kissing her." (yes ruined her life - no exageration on my part) and she continued to say " no one in the class has learned anything, and the entire class is disrupted all because of you son Tucker!" The little girl starts crying stop it mommy stop it, and the mom hugs her and says I know it's just so upsetting sweetie. She said she has spoken to his teacher and the prinicpal regarding Tucker. I went on to say that it is normal to hug friends, and that we are a very affectionate family and we have discussed it with Tucker to not hug or kiss anyone but mom and dad and that's it and that we have punished him for it and we can not control what he does. I said that she was to NEVER EVER speak to my child like that or tell someone that they are not "normal" and that if she has a problem she needs to come to us! Now, I'm a christian woman so I was kind (even though I wanted to grind her face into her driveway) my husband said a few choice words to her. I have instructed Tucker to not even look at her before her pshycho mother has him put in jail! I could see Tucker was visibly upset by the situation.
So, I pray that he doesn’t let this bother him. Tim and I talked to him about how he didn't do anything bad, that some people don't like to be touched and that this is why we keep telling him to keep his hands and lips to himself. That he is a good boy and he didn’t mean her any harm but that we can't do that! That he is perfectly normal and that there is nothing wrong with him but that (and I shouldn't have said this but I was angry) the girls mommy was a crazy lady who's mind was broke and she had man issues. So, I went in the house and was so mad I cried. How DARE anyone to speak to my child like that. I have never and will never speak to any child like that. I have problems with his little friend Spencer that comes down and I tell him he won't act like that in my home, he'll follow my rules or I say don't try to be sneaky or you won't be welcome back or I just flat out send him home for the day. I don't yell at him, I don't call him names. And I mean - come on lady! He kissed her, he didn't lick her, he didn't punch her! For pete's sake! This little girl is 5 and looks 9 she's really really large and he could be making fun of her for her size but instead he's so excited to be playing with her that he hugs her! GOOD GRIEF!!! So, I am still trying to deal with my anger of it, the old me is a very vengeful person and a fighter. So, I've been praying not only for me but for the mom and daughter also. I need to let this go it's just so hard. My mind starts drawing up all kinds of stories and things I should've said and then my heart starts beating faster and I get tense and then I have a choice to make at that point... to let it make me even more angry or pray. So, I am trying to pray.
Pray for me! On an upnote:
I did have a good Monday! Had a good day at work, Tucker had a good swim lesson (oh he's so stinking cute) I had a good workout, I ate GREAT nothing bad for me yesterday. So happy Monday... I have one more person signing up as a consultant under me!! So that makes two and if Kris' Bipsy signs up that'll be three. That's pretty cool (it sounds good but doesn't do anything for me finacially). But still... awesome! So, today I'm out of here at 1:30. I have the appt with the ENT today to look at my X-rays. I'm sure he'll send me to an allergist after todays appt. But I can go home and get a nap before Tucker gets home. I slept awful the sherriff's office called at 1:30 am and then again at 2am and then Tim had to get up and go in ..so I was awake and couldn't fall back asleep!
Okay... I'll shut up now... have a great and blessed day! Philippians 4:8
that's what I need to remember!

2007-04-17T12:13:00.000-05:00

Geez, is it only Tuesday. Man, seems like it should be Thursday I don't know why I feel this way.
Everything is going very well, makes for a pretty boring blog!
Tucker had his first swim lessons last night at the Y. OMG!!!!! He is SOOOOO cute. He did so well, he listened, he was patient, he did everything she asked, he showed no fear (even if he was afraid) he did it! I was so very proud! I took loads of pics (but of course those are at home) and the home computer is ill.
He's been so very sweet lately. He has such a great sense of humor. Get this, the other night he told a typical 6 yr old made up joke and I didn't laugh enough to please him. He told me "Mom, how come you don't always laugh at my jokes? From now... you laugh okay... at all of them."
Well then of course I laughed! I'm still laughing!
It's a beautiful day today, I just love the sunshine! Something about spring though, it always brings the partier me to surface. I was so badly to roll my window down, crank the rock-n-roll, grab a wine cooler and smoke a cigarette. I don't do any of those things of course as I know it's the enemy praying on the old me and the good times. The Lord than reminds me of the bad times and drama that comes with those so called good times. It'll be two years Sept 5th since I quit smoking. Something that everyone around me thought I'd never do. I was a die hard, hard core smoker. Isn't God good? He's truly an awesome God! Not a day of withdraw did I go through, He just removed it from me. I don't know why He chose me of all people but He did and I am grateful! I give Him all the glory because quitting was not of myself!
I had another good workout today. I ate a great lunch, got in 3 full servings of veggies just at lunch. Had my fruit and whole grain for breakfast - which let me tell you - it REALLY does fill you up longer. It's amazing the difference I've noticed in how I stay full longer. It's awesome!
I only had about 210 cals at lunch, around 210 at breakfast. I'll have an apple for an afternoon snack and then a sensible dinner (if I eat dinner). Usually that ends of being vegies too.
I keep thinking, I have a community pool, I only own two pieces boy I better hurry or else they are going to be blinded!! LOL!!!
Only 9 days until Women of Faith retreat. I found out Max Lucado is going to be there!! WOW! I am way excited about that, he's an amazing author and inspirator. Beth Moore will also be there. I've heard her name and heard wonderful things about her but I don't know her work. Sounds like it's going to be a great time. I've saved up money so I can go shopping with the ladies too and we'll eat out alot. oooo - I just thought of something. I have to be good at these resturaunts! BUMMER! Oh well, I need to remember two things 1.) Nothing tastes as good as thin feels 2.) I am not there to celebrate the food, I am there to celebrate the relationship with women friends! YEAH! I think I'll have to write that down to keep with me. I'm so weak!
LOL!
Okay, for someone who had nothing to say... I've said enough and bored you to tears.
LOVE YOU PRAYING FOR YOU - ALL!

2007-04-16T09:05:00.000-05:00

It's Monday morning and I'm getting ready to head off to the gym.
Today starts the Weight Loss Challenge that I joined here at work. It's 3 ladies friends, me and 1 guy. None of us has a ton to lose. I think my friend P and I both have the most with about 30 lbs. T and D only have about 10 to lose and the Major only wants to stay in shape and lose a little. So wish me luck! I ate everything in sight yesterday and baked a cinnamon swirl cake w/ yummy buttercream icing. My sweet tooth was so bad yesterday I was eating (don't gross out) marshmallows dipped in buttercream icing. Yep, you read right, marshmallows covered in icing. It was DELICIOUS! But I only ate 3 that way before my teeth started to hurt from the sugar! (just kidding)!
Okay, so now it's afterno0n. Didn't have time to finish this before. I had a great work out. I can really see a body starting to take shape! Wow - I have a body - who knew?! LOL!
My weekend was great. Friday went to dinner w/ the family, Saturday grocery, birthday party for one of Tucker's friends from school. Now this is a whole 'nother story all in it's own so I'll come back to it, went to dad's went to lowes' and got the tiles and paint for him to finish the island he's built for my kitchen. Took him to dinner, Sunday church and baked that cake.
So... the party... it is crazy how small this world is!
The last name was Gallion so thought maybe I'd run into a girl from school there with the same last name. But, they are no relation. However, I get to talking to a friend of this families and she was related to who I was refering to and I found out this girl was murdered 4 years ago! I was shocked! I guess she got very heavy into drugs and was stabbed. She was a beautiful girl, popular, cheerleader, perky, had alot going for her. I was shocked!
But I'll go on, so people at this party are looking familiar to me... come to find out... they are!
Back from my Jamestown days. The grandma of the little girl graduated with my oldest sister, the aunt (Karen Smart) graduated in between me and my sister Paige. So then I here someone say Holli what are you doing here? There stands a woman from my work (now this is a tiny town away from everything way far out) come to find out she's married to the brother Smart. WILD! So, were all like, Oh my gosh, I remember that and so they call their mother in, she says that name sounds familiar (my maiden name) and I said you may know my Grandma Devore. She said OH!!! Yes, I graduated a year before your mother! She knew my moms family and said somehow way way way down the line the Devores are related to her Foster side of the family down in Manchester KY. WEIRD! So, then some how a girls name was mentioned (Tanis) that I was friends with in elementary school and haven't seen since she moved away in like 5th or 6th grade. Come to find out - she is best friends with the Grandma of the little girl and she (Tanis) lives in the same town I do!! WHAT A WACKY CRAZY WORLD!
So, it was a blast to be at this party and Tucker had a blast and so what a great day!
Today is a Monday (and boy is it) I have the drop-sies and it's taken me all day to type this because I'm having a can't type day!
hope this finds you well!

2007-04-12T12:16:00.000-05:00

Well, Haley's gone! I really wish Phil would've went first.
Why is everyone making such a big deal about Sanjaya? Yes, he sucks. Yes, he's a joke.
Does anyone remember Kevin (aka Chicken Little) from last season? He was an even bigger joke that Sanjaya and he made it forever! Every season they have some poor unsuspecting loser on that makes it to the top 5.
Anywho... that's my take on American Idol for this week.
I went to church last night and then a friend (who forgot about my party) came over to see all my stuff. She also is a Creative Memories consultant and she is going to deactivate to sell CTMH. Her last party is Friday and then she'll have made her quota for her CM quarter.
Tonight, Tim is off and we have no plans. Lay around and do nothing. Think I'll make some homemade pizza's. Pillsbury has some great pizza crust in a can. Walmart brand pizza sauce rocks too! I think I'll try to make a few demo cards tonight. Thursday nights are my "night off" when I don't have to cook, clean or bath Tucker. Tim gets to do it all. (I want to make the pizza's because it's something Tucker and I can do together). So this is the night I try to get lots of scrapbooking, cardmaking, stamping done. I sit and think about it all day so my creative juices will be flowing by the time I get home. haha!
Hope this finds you warm cause I'm sure as heck not!
It was too cold to go outside to the gym today... so I got creative... I made 6 trips on a round trip of 60 steps (that's 360 steps) and around the hallways after each trip. Shew! I was worn out afterwards!
So, that's my work out for the day... and I needed it after eating an ENTIRE bag of Andy Capps cheddar fries yesterday! Yep... I was so bad and it tasted so good! LOL!!!

2007-04-11T10:53:00.000-05:00

Hello!
Not much to talk about today...it's very cold and rainy. Went to the gym anyways... to be a good little girl... walked around the track twice and they closed it so they could do a time trial for some military guys...so I went over to a mat thought, crunches... wasn't feeling it so I went and sat in the sauna for 10 min. That was a wasted trip in the cold!
Yesterday was cool but sunny. Tucker and I played some basketball (Btw he was so good for me here at work yesterday we made it all 8 hrs) then we played 5 games of crazy 8s and 3 games of old maid! (not at work that was at home inthe evening)
He's so much fun.
I got my website up and running: www.scrapping4u.myctmh.com So if anyone wants to try scrapbooking this is a good place to start.
That's about all I did last night. Watched AI. This has to be the worst season of AI ever!
Sanjaya needs to come back in a few years when he gets his man voice, Phil Stacy just sucks, Hayley is all legs and no talent. I like Lakisha but personally, I'm tired of looking at her boobs and she needs to cover up! I like Melinda but neither of them did well last night. I like Blake okay - he's the most 'pop' of them all. I did think Jordyn (adorable) did very good last night and I enjoyed her performance. Chris - yeah whatever... move on.
Welp, that's my AI update and I predict that Hayley goes home tonight... I'd rather Phil go first because honestly (I know this sounds horrible) I can't look at him, I have to close my eyes when he's on. Something creepy about him.
Alright, I've rambled on enough about nothing at all!

2007-04-10T08:52:00.000-05:00

Well, I hope this finds you all had a happy easter! I went out to read all that I had missed that past few days.

Check out this amazing website I was sent: http://www.hechosethenails.net/

WOW!

I had a wonderful weekend. I had my grand opening party which went very well. My friends love me enough to be honest with me and told me what I could do to be a better presenter. They spent lots of money (God love 'em)! and I received $80 worth of free stuff! So, I'll be building my inventory. A couple talked about hosting a workshop (aka crop) which would be awesome. I have a crop I'm going to set up my stuff at on the 21st and a business expo that got moved to the 28 (I can't go personally but I'll have a display board at).

Easter, I went to sunrise service alone (which was really kind of nice) and had breakfast at church, then my hubby came to church which I was thrilled with!!! However, I had nursery duty. I picked Tucker up (he spent the night w/ a friend and went to church w/ them) went home, grilled steaks, made au gratin potatoes (boxed) and rolls (frozen) and corn (frozen) and then we went to bed for 2 hours! SHEW! I needed the lazy day. About 6 Tim hid easter eggs and Tucker found 7 and me 3! Tucker and I colored them Friday night. And me, the scrapbooker FORGOT to take any pics of the coloring because I was so into coloring them! LOL! How do you give up one art for another?

Here is the pic Tim took of Tucker after he beat the pants off mom hunting eggs. This is the look of ornry if I ever saw it!

Tucker is at work with me today, and I have a conference room behind me, and a TV and toys here but geesh... he just isn't sweet and quiet like Jo (Kris' son) EVERYONE knows Tucker is here. It's gonna be a long day and I bet we don't make it 8 hours! LOL!

I stayed home yesterday one so Tucker wouldn't have to sit a daycare all day two because I forgot how vicous this time of month is when not on birthcontrol! The back pain, the bloating, the heaviness of it all! GEEZ O! After I have the kid I want this stuff yanked out! Who needs it?! So, I'm feeling pretty miserable still. Oh well... I guess we've all been there right?!

Okay, happy Tuesday God bless.

Oh! And Tim was off for 4 whole days! And we enjoyed each other so very much! It was so nice for all of us to be together and for he and I to have some alone time. It was truly a blessing!

2007-04-05T11:29:00.000-05:00

Hello, Global warming... can we talk? You see you have the word 'warming' in your title because YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE WARMING THE PLANET!! So, can you explain to me why it is snowing here today this 5th day of April?!?!? See, it's spring time... spring time is when it warms up not cools down. Um, you think you could fix that for me? Okay thanks!
So, the roads were so bad this morning... wrecks everywhere. The bridges were solid ice it was the craziest thing!
Tucker is spending the night tonight w/ his old babysitter and tonight is my hubby's night off... you know what that means? KID FREE YOU KNOW WHAT!!! Woo-HOO!!! LOL! I can't wait to see my hubby. I pray that we have an awesome time together doing whatever... running errands, watching TV, just being together.
This morning was donuts with dad at TK's school. He was so excited to have Daddy come to his school just the boys, and tomorrow evening Tim wants to take Tuck and his friend to a movie (Tim's idea)! He's such a good dad and Tucker idolizes him. I pray that Tim will find the Lord so he can imitate our Father so Tucker will imitate his fathers Father... get it?
I'm getting nervous, butterflies, sick to my stomach about Saturday. Talking in front of people... it will all go well I know. The business is being blessed by the Lord and He will bless me also. Besides, the people that are coming are my friends and family the people who love me whether I mess up or not. Okay, I feel better now. (I'm praying for that one)
Last night was missionettes. I made little Easter treat bags and we made little foam chick and bunny bookmarks for the girls to give to whoever for an Easter present. They really enjoyed doing it. I felt like a good little teacher. hahahaha!
The gym has been awesome! I've lost another pound and nothing motivates you to push really hard then pounds lost! It's amazing how big a difference 6 lbs makes... my pants keep slipping down today. Today was leg and butt day... if I didn't lose an 1" off of each hip and butt cheek I'll be suprised! (just kidding) But wow, I'll be lucky to walk w/o crying tomorrow. GOOD WORK OUT! Tomorrow is my big cardio day. I love it, I love running on the treadmill with my MP3. It makes me feel so strong, like I can conquer. You know Pat, I know you have shoulder problems but I really think walking or running or some sort of gym stuff might help you to feel better. It really gives me such a self esteem boosts. Like oh, if I can do this then I can surely handle that. I don't know... just a thought.
I guess I also give the Lord the praise for it because He is truly changing me. Making me more social, making me more outgoing. He has given me a peace and a joy. Not to say that I'm not going to get down, or depressed. But really, He is teaching me to be happy where I am at.
What turned my thinking around from negative to positive was every evening I wrote down something I was grateful for that day. Which somedays can be so hard especially when your spouse was horrible ugly to you that day. But something specific, i.e. I am grateful today for the acts17 website my friend shared with me today and it had some very specific information that answered some questions I had. And it helped me to focus on the good and it is turning the way I look at things. God is good! So very good!
Okay, I really ought to get to work... if I don't talk to ya'll have a blessed Easter. Praise Jesus for His sacrifice, Praise Him for loving YOU enough to die, Praise Him for the Holy Spirit, praise the Holy Spirit for it's conviction in our hearts and lives that we may ask for forgivness and be saved!
Kris, I will be praying for you and your family Easter morning that you will be very blessed in your new church!

2007-04-03T07:52:00.000-05:00

So, Friday afternoon I was writing a post about the shopping trip I was going on and the pedicure I was going to get and how pretty it was out, and how I was going to spend the afternoon w/ a girlfriend and how for you all not to be jealous. Then... the phone rang.
The school called, Tucker was sick. I had to go get him. My Friday afternoon was ruined! I left work in tears as my plans got ruined and I so desperately needed time away!
So, I got home got my kid off the bus, he had a fever of 102.3 and off to CVS to get MORE ibuprofen. It brought his fever down w/in the hour and he was fine the rest of the night and all day Saturday. Saturday I grocery shopped (and I SO hate the grocery store)! Then I had to be at the church at 2:00 for dress rehearsal. The play was great! We had such a good time and I was so blessed in doing it. Tucker ended up running a fever again Saturday evening. Saturday night he woke me up 3 times, soaked with sweat and cold and clammy. His fever had broke! Praise God! He's been fine ever since. Sunday the play was again at 7pm and it again went fabulously! Turns out, I have quite the dramatic flair (who knew)! I had people coming up saying you are my favorite actress! (lol)! But I had to tell them, it wasn't me. It was truly the Holy Spirit moving me. I just really felt the emotions as if it were really happening. So, I hope that lives were touched and that hearts were healed and that God was glorified because of this play. It was alot of fun doing it!
I went to the church last night and helped tear down the set. Tucker was thrilled because the guys let him help with the drill and carry boards, and pull out staples and some real 'guy' stuff. He was SO excited! And now those two guys are his new favorite people. He's not stopped talking about them since! I think he even talked about them in his sleep! LOL!
Things here at work are fine. I don't have end of month stuff to deal with like poor Ellie! THANK YOU JESUS! Things are starting to slow down now that I am finishing up my yearly inventory. Now, I just have to catch up on all the paperwork I couldn't do during inv.
Marriage is doing fine - it's hard for it to not be fine when I haven't seen him! Lol! Let's see, it feels like it's been two weeks since I've seen him. He went to the grocery Sat and I saw him about 30-40 minutes Sunday after church, and that's the last time I have laid eyes on my husband. Hard to have a fight if you don't see each other right? Funny! OH! He did get Thurs and Friday's off now. Did I already tell you that?
I am pretty excited to have date night again at least once a month. And family night the other nights, and I'll actually get a girls night out once in awhile too!
So, that's my life. That sums it up... nothing exciting.
I have Women of Faith conference coming up the 27-28! I get to leave home for a weekend! CAN'T WAIT! And they say this is truly a wonderful experience. So, I'm looking forward to it.
Well you have a blessed day!

2007-03-29T06:38:00.000-05:00

My poor baby woke me up at 4:00am "Mommy I don't feel good" and crying. Poor kiddo has a fever of 102.2 and was so very hot. Thank the Lord today is daddy's day off because I have a ton of stuff to do here at work. The upside of being woke up at 4am is that I got to work about a quarter to 6! So I have gotten alot done this morning w/ no interuptions. I really am such a morning person. I think clearer and am more motivated! (of course it could be the coffee).
We went to dinner last night at Aculpulco (sp) for my sisters birthday. I love my daddy! He's so amazing and sweet and he's the most amazing artist! He's built me a kitchen island and this thing is gorgeous! I can't believe it! Plus he paints and anything you need fixed he can fix it. He has a heart of gold and he loves his girls! He's the best ever! I am so lucky and I know it!
I had a rockin' work out yesterday. And I feel it today. Actually all my workouts this week have been fantastic. I'll tell ya' I lost 6 lbs and now I am really motivated to keep it up! I'm lifting heavier weights and I feel like such a stud! HAHAHAHAHAHA! No seriously, it's funny, when I'm in the gym lifting weights, I really feel like I can accomplish anything. It gives such a sense of strength not just physical but emotional too. Like I can do anything I want to do - girl or not! I have discovered that I love lifting and I love running. I think these things have become my get away. I would love to be able to spend an hour lifting, an hour running and a 1/2 hour in the sauna. But I don't have that kind of time. But imagine how fit I'd be if I could! ha!
So, that's what's going on in my life. The weather has turned cold and rainy but I look around and all the fields are this bright green, I mean really green. It's so awesome to see everything come to life that even the rain can't depress me now! Tuesday was so fabulous I ran in the house, threw on shorts and t-shirt and hit the deck and sat in the sun, eyes closed and baked. AAhhh, I love to feel the sun soak through my skin (and all the cynics are saying, aaahh, you love to feel the skin cancer eat you up). I use a 40spf sunscreen when I'm going to be in the sun during the summer, and I still get a great tan with that.
Okay, so now I'm rambling. Oh! I have been invited to set up at a business expo in Cincinnatti I hope I can get alot of business from that and also will be at a crop on the 21st. Same one Kris was at last month. Business is looking up! YEAH!

2007-03-26T07:15:00.000-05:00

Goooooooo mooooooorning everybody!!!! It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood, a beautiful day in the neighborhood, won't you be my neigh-bor? (ok, if you don't have Mr. Rodgers you so don't get that goofy little song I just sang for ya). It's a balmy 62 dEgrees outside and ladies and gents it's makes me feel sooooooooooo good! Yes, I am in a wonderful mood for a Monday morning. I've got coffee in me and the sunshine is coming up and I had a great weekend!
Friday- the Frog walk. What an amazing experience. I thought of you Neicey. So, get this, it was like being at a rock concert where the bass literally rattles the insides of your ears! No really, I am serious. The frogs (all boy frogs looking for girlfriends) were so loud and so many that it really hurt your ears! It was the most amazing thing. It was muddy and mucky and so much fun! We got a ton of frogs and let the kids touch them and see them and then let them go again. The boys (Tucker and his friend) really enjoyed it and were so well behaved I couldn't believe it! I had laid towels on the seats and garbage bags in the floors so my car wouldn't get all muddy and good darn thing because we were knee deep in it! So, we got home and stripped 'em down in the garage and they went in and put jammies on and I gave 'em a snack and they were out by 10:30! They got up at 7am Sat morning and I cleaned house. I met Kris to get an order of mine (that she so wonderfully ran around to get for me because she's the kindest person you'll ever meet thanks girl)! We sat in the sunshine and I even got a little burn on my cheeks from it! WOW - I feel the vitamin K coursing through my veins! LOL! I had a pleasant all though too short visit with Kris and then took the boys back home to play outside for awhile. Took Tucker's friend home about 4 and finished up laundry. Tucker and I took a walk about 6:30 and enjoyed the rest of the evening. I got some awesome scrapbook pages done for my demo book thanks to Kris getting my order to me. I did some embossing and chalking and it all turned out really cool. My husband got a kick out of me being all excited like a kid... hey look at my artwork... hehehe! Sunday, we had church, ate pizza there and did costume fittings, and had play practice until 4:00. Again, Tucker was so good it was unbelievable! What a long time for a 6yr old boy to be inside! They play is next Sat and Sun and I really am praying that Lord fills the church pews and that they come in droves to the alter. I'll tell ya' the drama is that good! We have some fabulous talent at our church (which isn't very big) big powerhouse voices. It's very exciting.
Then I washed my car (so my husband would quit nagging me about it) :-) and it looks marvelous! (not).
So that was my weekend play by play.
OH! The ENT! He gave me loads of meds. Steroids, nose sprays (did I tell you this already?) Oh well... I'm saying it again... lol! He thinks it's allergies. I went Friday morning and had a CT scan done of my sinus and I go back to him on the 24th. So until then I don't know anything more except that the meds have opened me up and I can breath! Although, this steroid is a nasty nasty medication! I'm sleepy, a bit quick to temper, and dizzy!
But it's almost gone... I'll be fine!
LOVE YA ALL!!!

2007-03-23T10:11:00.000-05:00

POST 100!! WOW!! I'm a big mouth apparently! HAPPY FRIDAY!!
So, as you all know, I've suffered for the past 6mths with sinus infections. Well, again I have another and this time I went to an ear nose throat Dr. I give up on my family Dr. I do not want another antibiotic! So, this Dr says I am swollen shut on the left side of my nose and not far behind on the left. Gave me 2 nose sprays to use and prenidsone (sp) and claritin-D all together to get the swelling down and dry me up. He did say he thinks it looks more like allergies and is not an infection yet. I went for a CT-scan this morning of my sinus and I go back to his office April 24th and he'll look at the scan then and we'll decide whats next. Why do I think I see allergy shots in my future? Oh I hope not!
So, we went to Frishe's Big Boy (like Shoney's for the southern folk) for dinner last night. It's Tucker's favorite for some strange reason and I am SO NOT a fan! I had a bowl of veg. soup and a pot of decaf coffee. What's the point in eating if I can't taste it anways right?! LOL!
I embossed a couple of things for a new scrapbook page I'm doing. I'm going to love embossing - it turns out really neat! I also chalked a couple of stamps and it looks like a watercolor painting... so cool!
Tonight Tucker is having a friend stay the night and we are going to a local state park on a frog walk at night. We're going to find frog eggs, tadpoles and sit and listen to the frogs. I was excited about the trip originally - but its raining and not going to stop. OH JOY! This is a trip through the school. One of the teachers' husband's is a ranger there so he's going to be our guide. I know Tucker is excited about having a friend stay the night. This little boy is very sweet and quiet UNTIL you get him and Tucker together... this ought to be interesting!
Wish me luck! haha!
Other than that this weekend should be peaceful. I plan to rest ALOT! :-)
Hope you all have fabulous weekends... make sure to get some peace somewhere somehow!

2007-03-21T13:21:00.000-05:00

For you Ellie! (the bad luck stuff was this was an email and I had to forward it etc.)

VIRGO - The VirginDominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>SCORPIO - The Sex Addict>>EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREATkisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic. Caring.
4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>LIBRA - The Lame Lover>>Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! However not the kind of person you wanna mess with... You might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>ARIES - The Liar>>Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water>>Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward
>>>GEMINI - Does Twosomes>>Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.
Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.
9 years of bad luck if you do not forward
>>>LEO - The Lion in bed>>Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at it.
Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud.
Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find.
Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward
>>>CANCER - The Cutie>>MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high sex appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>PISCES - The Piece of Ass>>Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Sexy, DAMN IT. High sex appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she>wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover>>Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Sexy. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>TAURUS - The Tramp>>Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most sexiest >people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
>>>SAGITTARIUS - The Sexy one>>Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relat ionships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most cari ng person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!!>Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna mess with - you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward

2007-03-21T11:22:00.000-05:00

I had such a great time last night! My upline Carol came over last night and we went through the website and order forms and some product and she answered some questions I had. We discussed my upcoming Jumps Start party and what we want to do. Then she showed me some great techniques (is that how you spell that?). We embossed clear and white and chalked some. How the beautiful artwork I can create with this stuff is going to be sooooooo fun!
I won't make a cent off of this because I'll spend it all!!! :-)
I can't wait until I have some stock so I can give prizes and gifts to my customers for incentives.
YEAH!
I can't wait to hold my first workshop!
Okay, so other than that I didn't do anything. That was my night, I didn't get to bed until after 10 (I usually am in bed NO LATER THAN 9) and had to get up at 4:30 this morning! I am exhausted after having been to the gym pushing weights everyday this week. I woke up feeling congested and a sore throat and I went to the gym anyways! That 5lb loss has totally motivated me! So, now I'm tired and I am so ready for bed.
I have a feeling I'm going to have to call the ENT Dr. because this is getting worse throughout the day and I REFUSE to be put on antibiotics yet again!
I am having a good day though, don't feel so well, but am in a great mood and am happy to be here and I am SO happy that tonight is my hubby's night off because I miss him like mad!
I do hope you are having a blessed day.
Oh here's something funny I got today... and I don't really believe in horoscopes but this was really funny... and oh so true (ONLY KIDDING)
Sagitarius:
Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relat ionships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most cari ng person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!!>Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna mess with - you might end up crying.

2007-03-20T07:15:00.000-05:00

Holla!!!!!!!!!! How's everyone?
I'm fine. Things here at work are busy so I didn't get to post yesterday.
My weekend went really well.
Friday night, my husband went to spend time with his parents while I did the scrapbook thing at my house. We had so much fun! Tucker and Liza (my new sitter) sat at a table and did foam animal masks and magnets. He really enjoyed that and us old people sat at the table and scrapped. The CM consultant that was there is already saying... I should deactivate and sign up to sell this stuff (yeah). She already has everything CM and wants some new stuff and really loved the stamps and stamping and the quality of CTMH products. How impressed with me would the company be to not even have my first party and already have a downline? Hehe!
And CTMH quotas are less. (hint hint Kris). hahahahaha!
So, all went well and my husband relaxed over the house and realized he was having an OCD moment and all was peaceful! Praise God!
Saturday we went to the grocery together. My back has really been hurting and so I need Tim's help. I can't push the cart when my back hurts this bad. I'm doing good to walk. But I am starting to feel better.
Sunday was church, then Burger King (Tucker earned it) then play practice at church, then home to fold laundry and then bath time and bed time! Desperate housewives was a re-run so I didn't have to stay up to watch it! It's about the only show I watch on TV, that and Ellen.
Last night, Tucker and I played together and we each curled up in his bed under a blanket and each read books (me my CTMH manual) and he read little books that he's learned to read. It's so awesome to see your child sit there and sound out words and read a book. My heart was melting! The TV never even got turned on last night. I love those nights! We've had several of them lately.
OH! I did weigh myself yesterday, I figured it's Monday, it's raining I might as well be totally depressed... well... I lost 5 lbs!!!!! I couldn't believe my eyes! I was totally excited! So I was in a good mood all day.
That good mood wore me out though, we went to be at 8:00!!!!!!! Yep 8pm! Tucker and I were in our beds and on our way to lala land! And I still didn't want to get up this morning...weird!
Not sure why I am so drained.
Well, it's Tuesday 1 down 4 to go!
My upline Carolyn is coming over to go over some of my questions and sort through stuff with me. I am so excited to get this show on the road... I'm ready to start selling!
I'll share something else with ya'. God has really been talking to me lately. It's awesome and it fills me with great joy but when it's about yourself and things that you need to change it sure is hard to hear but God has a way of preparing your heart for it first. It's something I can't explain. (except to say it's a God thing).
There are as you all know, marriage issues but Sunday at church, He just gave me such a peace about it all, told me what to change (attitude) and how to handle conflict, He asked me, is proving my point to my husband about the cross? Is yelling at my husband about the cross? No its not and everything I do should be about the cross. It should be for the Lord. He's truly blessing me with friends (which I was in desperate need of) and things to occupy my time so I won't be lonely when my husband is at work, and now this CTMH opportunity, he's changed my personality and changed me into the old Holli, the fun Holli. The happy, bubbly, outgoing me.
He has dealt (and is dealing) with my anxiety and social issues. He's so good and is so awesome!
And I am so glad that I am hearing Him and being obedient to Him! I just want to do His will and He totally gave me peace about my marriage, about my family and about our future and He is so good!
Well, I'll end this post on that! PRAISE THE LORD FOR HIS GLORY!!
Col 3:17 - look it up!

2007-03-16T06:05:00.000-05:00

IT'S FRIDAY IT'S FRIDAY AND I'M LEAVING WORK AT 2:00 YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!
Of course I got in here at 6am which means I've been up since 4:30am. Not so yeah, but I'll be feeling good at 2 when I walk out of these doors for the weekend.
I've got to get my house picked up and an extra table set up for tonight. I want to bake a cake and go to the store and get something to drink and some dip for chips. Nothing special, very informal. We stopped at Michaels craft store last night after Chuck E Cheese and I bought Tucker a kit that he can make these foam animal masks. So I thought the kids could do that while us ladies scrap. I also get to show off some of my new tools and get them good and curious! hehehe!
Neice- my church has lots of these IBGs, there is golf, motorcycle, sewing, scrapping, bible study, a singles group and my church is a small to medium sized church. Once you find a new home church this might be a good thing for you to bring to the table...it's really a great way to get to know people.
So, I guess basically it'll be a monthly crop and I'm excited!
Chuck E Cheese was a blast. Tucker was sooooo good and he had a ball! He got his little prizes w/ his tickets and after about an hour and a half he was ready to go home! I couldn't believe it, i was prepared for the battle of getting him out of there!
So... on the way home.... (ah you knew the whole post couldn't be upbeat right?!)
So, I told you all I am going off the pill. (yeah for me) however... the husband is not thrilled. He doesn't want anymore kids (so he says) when we first got together however he did. I would never ever ever have even glanced his way if he didn't want kids. So about 2-3 months ago he point blank asked me - so it's a baby or divorce and I said yes that it wasn't an option for me. That I had given up enough of my dreams for him and this was not going to be one of them. Well he never said anything after that, we never argued about it again and obviously we're not divorced so... I thought he was on the upswing w/ this idea. Well last night he let me know that he is not, will not have kids. Well... then I guess you're out the door... I'm not going back on the pill so I guess he and I won't be having sex. I don't know! I honestly think it has to do with the fact that he has a SUPPOSED daughter out there that he has nothing to do with (not of his own doing) and he'll feel guilty taking care of one and not the other. He resents me (he let me know last night) because I won't LET him see his daughter. I said Tim she has blue eyes and red hair... the odds genetically that she is yours is slim. He swears she's his kid. If he really and I mean because he loved her not out of guilt really wanted to see her, he'd be doing everything possible to get to her. You know what I mean? I mean if I had a kid that wasn't in my life... I'd call the mother and say look its like this... you do the paternity test this way OR I'll gladly go to a lawyer and we can do it through court and I'll pay child support and you'll be forced into visitation. I would think that he would WANT to take care of his own kid if she's that important to him. I really think he's operating out of guilt and not of love. But anywho... I told him I'm going to have a baby one way or the other. With or without you. I had Tucker alone I can have another one alone. No one got up in the middle of the night to help me, no one fed him for me, no one changed him, no one gave him baths at night time. I don't expect your help. I just expect your 'deposit' and then you can be gone... whatever. He is so in his own world...he's so selfish. He had a fit when he found out I was having the scrapbook stuff at our house. Sorry, but I am a hostess, I love to open my home to others and that's what I'm going to do and he needs to find another wife that is weird like him!

2007-03-15T13:40:00.000-05:00

Well, what is there to talk about... the weather has turned cold again and so very bone biting windy! YUCK! I can't believe just two days ago I was outside w/o a coat on!
Inventory is going well, not as well as I'd like but I think I'll be done by April 1. I'm trying to get things ready for my party on the 7th. I think that's what I'll work on at my house Friday. OH! Did I tell you I'm having a monthly crop at my house? Apparently I forgot to tell my husband too (big oops) boy was he upset. Well, it's on the 3rd Friday of every month (from now until June I think). It's an interest based group (IBG). It's a way to get your non-christian friends to meet your christian friends by using a common ground. I'm excited and hope to be a blessing to someone! You should check out my church website www.wilmingtonag.org if you go to the photo gallery Tucker and I are the first photo that comes up... ooooohhh he's so stinking cute!
Most of the other photos are really old. They don't have the new missionettes teacher up yet and alot of the IBGs aren't listed yet although I asked them to post mine but don't know if they'll get to it.
Anyways... oh here's some news... I'm going off the pill. Figured I'm 35 and 35 and 1/2 in June so if I'm going to do this - it's now or never. So... wish me luck and I hope I have fun in the process... hehehehehehe!!!
We're taking TK to Chuck-E-Cheese tonight. I hope we have a good time. I'm hoping a Thursday night won't be busy!
So... that's my life for the moment... hope you are having a good week. I am so glad tomorrow is Friday!!!

2007-03-13T09:36:00.000-05:00

OH!!! It is SOOOOOOOOOO beautiful out today... it's gotta be getting close to 65! And the sun feels so good! I kept singing Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy!! You gotta love John Denver! I was out doing inventory and am SO glad I got to get out in it. Yesterday after work Tucker and I played some basketball and I watched him and the neighborhood kids play in the yard. It's so nice!
I got my CTMH kit last night. I was so excited! I went through all the stuff in there and was way overwhelmed but way excited. The party went well Friday. I got to help alot and learned a ton about the products. Heard lots of questions which I hope to remember the answers too! :-)
So... I'm anxious to get started!
Going for an extended lunch today. A girl here is having a babyshower at this GREAT pizza place. Buffet style pizza and salad! Can't wait! And the mom-to-be is the sweetest girl ever and this is her first. She has been the most pleasant pregnant girl ever she has truly enjoyed every moment ache and pain. I am truly happy for her. (and jealous because I want a little one again).
But a happy for her jealous not a bad jealous (just thought I'd clarify that)!
Tonight I'm going to play ball with my kid again... maybe I can talk him to taking a walk with me. It's supposed to be 72 today and WOW I can't wait. Of course we'll all be sick as dogs next week as its supposed SNOW Friday and Saturday. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
But I'm going to get out and enjoy it while I can. Thursday Tim and I are going to take Tucker to Chuck E Cheese. Tucker is sooooo excited. He earned the trip with his behavior/chore chart. He's really doing very well lately! (now I've jinxed us). HAHA
I need to come up with some REALLY super awesome recipes for my party. I want to blow everyone's socks off with my creativity! LOL! So, if anyone has any super (and super easy) appetizer recipes... please post them in my comments!
THANKS!
And have I told you how good God is?! He's pouring out the blessings on me and I am thrilled!

2007-03-09T12:38:00.000-05:00

Oh happy Friday!! It's finally here!!!
I went to this great sub place for lunch today... my friend and I got this booth right in the sun! Oh we could've sat there for hours!! It was so amazing to sit and bask and be warm!
It's beautiful today... makes me want to pull a Julie Andrews (you S of M fans will know what I'm talking about).
I go to my first Close To My Heart party tonight. I'm going to watch my upline/sponsor give a party so I learn how to give a party. I'm excited but now am starting to get nervous. The self doubt is starting to kick in. You know the, Oh I don't know enough people, and I'm not good enough to stand in front of people, I'm not crafty enough to give workshops on how to make something, or the I don't want to bother anyone or want them to feel obligated stuff. I know those thoughts aren't from God. God put this opportunity in front of me and everything fell into place and I know that it will be succesful as long as I use according to God's plan for it!
So, I'm going to take a deep breath now and when I blow it out I will visualize the butterfllies in my stomach blowing out with it. Don't ask me why I have butterflies because tonights party I'll just be another guest! Imagine how scared I'll be at my first party! (which I'm planning now Kris - hint hint)! :-)
I don't really have much other planned. Coloring moms hair and her coloring mine Saturday afternoon that's it. I do hope that the weather holds out - although it's supposed to rain... but better than snow! I do hope you enjoy your weekend - get plenty of rest and relaxtion!

2007-03-06T08:15:00.000-05:00

Good Tuesday morning blogger world.
I am so very busy at work the next couple of weeks. It's time for annual inventory so I won't be around my desk much.
Real quick before I gotta go - You have to see and I do mean HAVE to see the movie Wildhogs.
OMG!!! I laughed through the whole movie - I even snorted - in public!
It was so very funny and I would pay to see it again. I saw a little of Vinnie Barbarino in there (from Welcome back Cotter for you young folk) which I was hoping to see! I don't recall any foul language in it... one butt scene but nothing the kids can't see. It's got to be in my new top 5.
My hubby and I went on a date Friday (which the dealings with him were HORRIBLE) but I didn't let it ruin my dinner at a new Mediteranean Cafe we have in town - it was very good and again the movie was funny. I found a new sitter - and she worked out fantastic!
I won't go into the gory detail of my horrid date w/ my husband (our first alone date in who knows how long and he ruined it) but he did apologize and is trying to make up for it.
So... I guess all in all it was a great night. Peaceful weekend other than that.
This is going to be a busy week with work, church, taxes, a Close to my heart show (going to my 1st show to learn how to sell it) hair appts on Saturday, church and play practice Sunday... oh my... I'm going to need to take next Monday off to rest! LOL!
Oh well, if I'm busy then I can't sit around and feel lonely or depressed! SO I'll praise God that I'm busy and that He's filling my life with great things!
If you are a praying person please pray for my friend Pat. Her family is really going through the toughest of all times and I know she feels so out of control. Please pray that God will meet their needs and He knows what their needs are.
Thank you!

2007-03-01T14:19:00.000-05:00

ooo!! Fun WAY extended lunch today... went to formerly known as Parisians (now ElderBeerman) they are having 85% off sales!!!! I got a pair of 69.99 shoes (Naturlizers) for EIGHT count 'em ladies $8.00!!!!!!!!!!!!! I bought a shirt and a sweater and those shoes all for %21.00. It was so fun. I'm getting ready to leave work now (yep 2:20) before you get jealous remember I was up at 4am! :-)
Tonight is my declared night off. No supper, no giving baths, no nothing. I sit and veg in front of the TV and the hubby has to do it all. I LOVE IT! hehehhee
So enjoy your Thursday evening and talk to ya all tomorrow!

2007-02-28T10:23:00.000-05:00

POST # 90! Wow and I still have nothing to say! :-0
So things have been peaceful - thank goodness!
I did leave work a little early and go see a friend of mine Chris (a different one) from elementary school/jr high/HS. We last saw each other when I was 19. We lost touch w/ each other after that we both started dating in different crowds and that was that. Girls - if I have learned anything and could re-do anything... I would NEVER EVER lose touch with my girlfriends no matter what crowd I was in. I would always make girlfriend night every week and stay in touch. I hate that I have lost many wonderful women!
Okay so anyways... I went to see her and all I could say was how grown up she looked! She looked so professional in her pants suit and her fixed hair. I was so proud of her! We sat down and here's how to tell a true friend... when you can pick right back up and talk as if you have never been apart! We could've sat for hours and talked. It was so fun!
Home life is peaceful (and I'm enjoying it) and I am still healthy! PRAISE GOD!
I've been doing a bible study everyday and it's helping me. I am finding encouragement in God's word where I never knew where to look before. I am getting ready to start my business and I'm THRILLED about that. It's close to my heart scrapbooking/cardmaking/stamping supplies (kind of like what our Kris sells). I'm thrilled to get started. I can't wait to start making and stamping some pages. So I hope that this finds everyone having a great middle of the week.
Pat - wherever you are (in FL I assume) I am praying for your family and for your marriage and your sanity! LOVE YA!

2007-02-26T14:31:00.000-05:00

Oh relief!
I got plenty of rest this weekend. It was so relaxing and I feel SOOOOOOO much better.
I truly do believe in the healing power of God. I think that is the only reason I feel better!
I went to the gym today (only missed Friday last week) and did the treadmill. I always feel so strong and powerful when I get off from running. I've realized that I love to run. I just can't do it for long yet but I will!
I'm going back to weightlifting next week - do that for a week and then cardio the next week- just gonna see how switchin' it up works for me.
I am also reducing the stress in my life by changing my attitude and my outlook on some things.
God is good and I am grateful!
Love you all and happy Monday to ya!

2007-02-22T13:06:00.000-05:00

I am sick and tired of being sick! I need summer to be here!
Today will be my last day on antibiotics... the 4th script in 4 months and today, my throat is starting to hurt again, my ears feel very 'full' and I'm starting to get a horrible headache and I have felt tired and weak and sore all day.
I'm ready to quit my job and curl up under a ton of blankets and not come out until June 1st!
I hope everyone else is feeling better!

2007-02-20T19:00:00.000-05:00

The pictures as promised... oh my poor cancer-looking baby!